First of all, Merry belated Christmas to everyone! I didn't have much access to a computer to wish the above on time. For that, I apologize.
Today is the LAST Monday of the year. Wow...and what a year it's been. I could look back and go on and on about the economy, the "bailouts", and everything else, but I'd rather go month by month in the lives of Jake and I in 2008.
JANUARY: I turned 24 to a day of shopping and dinner at the Melting Pot in San Jose with my parents, Jake, my aunt Kevin and cousin Megan. It was a kick-ass day. Jake and I rang in the New Year with a quiet get together with his mom and her friend Michael while watching the fireworks over SF from Lynn's balcony.
FEBRUARY: It was leap year. Jake and I got our first new car! Our 2008 Honda CR-V was a lot of research and comparing vehicles. In the end, it won our hearts. We've never had ONE SPECK of buyer's remorse.
MARCH: In March, Jake and I started having our first tax season. We began working 6 days a week inputting information and cranking out those tax returns. We became a well-oiled machine in no time.
APRIL: Our first tax season officially ended April 15th at 6:10pm! The final e-filed return was submitted and the three of us could finally exhale. We celebrated by going to a SF Giants baseball game the following day. We rode the ferry from San Rafael to SF.
MAY: Jake and I celebrated one year of marriage! We went to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and the spot where Jake proposed. It was foggy and quite cold, but a hot bowl of fresh clam chowder in a sourdough bread bowl fixed that in no time. The following day, we took off to Texas to surprise Jake's Dad. We arrived in the early afternoon and I got a taste of Texas weather in May. Two words: Hot and Humid. We spent 5 days there BBQing, checking out the local sites and even seeing the Bureau of Engraving where they make money. We checked out building developments in the area, and went to the Colonial Invitational where we saw Phil Mickelson play (#2 golfer in the world). We ended the trip with my first experience in a Bass Pro Shop Outdoor World...one word...Whoa.
JUNE: June saw little excitement until the end of the month when my cousin Megan announced her pregnancy. Admittedly, it was a bittersweet moment for Jake and I, but we are thrilled for Meggie nonetheless. Our time will come, and we began preparations for infertility treatments. Jake, my parents and I also trekked down to LA for my niece April's wedding in Disneyland. It was the first time my parent's had been there in 13 years. It was HOT there, but we still had tons of fun.
JULY: Of course, we celebrated USA's birthday in Sacramento with the family. We BBQ'd, played games, and set off fireworks in the street. July also saw the release of The Dark Knight which became an instant favorite with Jake. In Pt. Richmond, we stayed pretty mild and cool during the Summer months.
AUGUST: August is the month of birthdays. First, Jake turned 29 on the 8th. Then there was Summer's 27th on August 19th and my mom's birthday on the 25th. August was also the month of the release of Sex and the City, the movie. Jake was one of about 5 men total in the theater.
SEPTEMBER: September we went to Katie and Lori's wedding in Glen Ellen, near Santa Rosa. The mild day was gorgeous, as were the brides. Jake and I had tons of fun, and I got to watch my first Horrah (I don't know if I spelled that correctly). On the way home, Jake and I also walked across the Golden Gate Bridge. Despite my back problems, it was enjoyable. I'm not sure I'd do it again though.
OCTOBER: October was a month of debates in the presidential election. Campaigns heated up, and the race for the Oval Office was quite exciting. It was also the first Halloween that I can remember where it rained. Trick-or-Treating was cut short, but I still had fun. Halloween was also my first IUI, and we were very hopeful for a positive outcome.
NOVEMBER: My parents celebrated their 28th wedding anniversary (WOW), and of course, there was the presidential election. I went to my local polling place at 7:15 in the morning and cast my vote. That night, Jake and I watched the news for updates on the polls throughout the night. We were also watching for California's Prop 8. For us, it was an exciting moment in American history, but a saddening defeat for California for Prop 8. Jake and I also decided to take a break from trying to have a baby.
DECEMBER: Well, here we are. It's the final Monday of 2008, and an entire year in summary for Jake's and my world. I learned how to make Peppermint Bark with Megan, and SOS, Inc. celebrated it's first year of business. Jake was met with Rock Band 2 for PS3 and The Dark Knight on DVD for Christmas. I got a new video camera and gift cards. Santa brought also brought Jake and I a Dyson Animal vacuum cleaner (yes, we asked for it). Our other vacuum broke even though we loved it so much.
So there you have it. A personal year-in-review from me. I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe New Years....if I don't post between now and then. Also, I apologize for no weekly video on Friday. Again, I didn't have much internet access. :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Lost weight?
I had a good weekend, first off. I went with my mom and Grandma to the cemetery where my grandfather is buried. Friday was the anniversary of his death and I haven't been there in a couple of years. It was time. Then we went to lunch in Redwood City and I left. I went to Summer's house, picked her and Skyler up and then went Christmas shopping with them to finish up my list. I got home and wrapped Jake's gifts right away so they wouldn't be sitting in open ground to be found by his snooping ;). Sunday, we slept in and then he got up and went to finish his Christmas shopping for my gifts. He got home, wrapped his gifts for me and we put everything under the tree. We sort of just hung out at the house for the rest of the day. Towards 4:30-5pm, I decided I wanted to take a small rainy-day walk to Starbucks down the street. So, Jake and I bundled up and walked to SB, ordered coffee (and a blueberry muffin for me) and then we walked home. It was such a relaxing day...very foreign to us since we're always cleaning or going somewhere.
But anyways, the reason for my post: I've had 4 separate people tell me I look like I've lost weight in 2 days time. First, it was my Grandma when I saw her...then this morning a client walked into the office who has seen me before and said it, then Lynn and Summer agreed. I don't see it. I admit, my appetite has decreased a little, but not that much. I guess it comes with the territory of seeing yourself every day. That and I don't have a full length mirror anywhere, so I don't really see my body. I guess I should just keep on what I'm doing...because I guess it's working. :)
But anyways, the reason for my post: I've had 4 separate people tell me I look like I've lost weight in 2 days time. First, it was my Grandma when I saw her...then this morning a client walked into the office who has seen me before and said it, then Lynn and Summer agreed. I don't see it. I admit, my appetite has decreased a little, but not that much. I guess it comes with the territory of seeing yourself every day. That and I don't have a full length mirror anywhere, so I don't really see my body. I guess I should just keep on what I'm doing...because I guess it's working. :)
Friday, December 19, 2008
Weekly video 12/19/08
Since it's the Friday before Christmas, I'll post a festive video. I know this one might be an oldie, but it's still entertaining as heck. Who has the time to do this...seriously?
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Awesome weekend
As most of you might know, I've been having a tough time lately. With the stress from trying to have a baby, work, Christmas (yes I sometimes stress about that too), and being lonely here in Point Richmond, it's been hard on me.
This weekend, I was invited to my wonderful cousin Megan's house to show me how to make peppermint bark. I decided to go the double-color route and do semi-sweet chocolate on the bottom and white chocolate on top with all natural candy canes on top of that. We had a blast crushing candy canes with hammers, melting the chocolates and hanging out. We were listening to Christmas music half the time and I really got into the Christmas spirit. I usually don't get into Christmas until about 3-5 days beforehand. Then by the time Christmas rolls around, it's holiday overload. When it ends, I don't want to even think the word "Christmas" until next year. I've been good about gifts. I've got all but a couple of people done, which is unheard of for me. I had my first gifts bought and wrapped by mid November. It totally freaked my mom out. While on my way home, I found a Christmas music radio station and was rockin' out to "Feliz Navidad". I'm talking full on car karaoke. I'm sure I got a lot of "what the hell?" looks from fellow drivers, but I didn't care.
When I got home, Jake had cleaned most of the house, which I was really surprised and happy about. It's been pretty crazy in our house with gifts, decorations, mail, and everything else. He cleaned it all up and I was greeted with a clean house. I had put up lights in the front window and with the Christmas tree all lit up in the window too, it was so awesome to come home too.
Yesterday, Jake had to go to San Jose, so I stayed home and finished Breaking Dawn...the last book in the Twilight saga. I'm a little bummed that I'm done reading the series, but it is such a good series. The ending was good and I was happy with the entire story. I'm only sad that the author's 5th book was leaked, so we can only read the first 12 chapters on her website.
So that's pretty much it...I hope everyone else is keeping warm and cozy these days...it's FREEZING outside! :)
This weekend, I was invited to my wonderful cousin Megan's house to show me how to make peppermint bark. I decided to go the double-color route and do semi-sweet chocolate on the bottom and white chocolate on top with all natural candy canes on top of that. We had a blast crushing candy canes with hammers, melting the chocolates and hanging out. We were listening to Christmas music half the time and I really got into the Christmas spirit. I usually don't get into Christmas until about 3-5 days beforehand. Then by the time Christmas rolls around, it's holiday overload. When it ends, I don't want to even think the word "Christmas" until next year. I've been good about gifts. I've got all but a couple of people done, which is unheard of for me. I had my first gifts bought and wrapped by mid November. It totally freaked my mom out. While on my way home, I found a Christmas music radio station and was rockin' out to "Feliz Navidad". I'm talking full on car karaoke. I'm sure I got a lot of "what the hell?" looks from fellow drivers, but I didn't care.
When I got home, Jake had cleaned most of the house, which I was really surprised and happy about. It's been pretty crazy in our house with gifts, decorations, mail, and everything else. He cleaned it all up and I was greeted with a clean house. I had put up lights in the front window and with the Christmas tree all lit up in the window too, it was so awesome to come home too.
Yesterday, Jake had to go to San Jose, so I stayed home and finished Breaking Dawn...the last book in the Twilight saga. I'm a little bummed that I'm done reading the series, but it is such a good series. The ending was good and I was happy with the entire story. I'm only sad that the author's 5th book was leaked, so we can only read the first 12 chapters on her website.
So that's pretty much it...I hope everyone else is keeping warm and cozy these days...it's FREEZING outside! :)
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Twilight update
I'm currently about 2/3 of the through the fourth and final book. I'm having a tougher time reading this book because it's just not catching me yet. I'm sure it'll get to me.
I'm also going to (drum roll please) be sending out Christmas cards this year! I hope people like them.
I know this is a short update, but I've got nothing else...
I'm also going to (drum roll please) be sending out Christmas cards this year! I hope people like them.
I know this is a short update, but I've got nothing else...
Friday, December 5, 2008
Good news!
I went to my physical therapist today about my back. He put me in the traction machine (pulls your hips down to help align the spine), and it was LOVELY!!! I could feel the pull and I loved every second of it. I almost fell asleep on the table/bed. He said my mobility in my right leg is getting better, and my hip mobility isn't detereorating, so that's good.
So..the good news? I don't have scoliosis. We discussed the curve in my spine and my concerns of what it might be. He said it's 99% chance of a weight-bearing curve since when I lay on my stomach and bend down my spine is perfectly straight. He says it's very treatable, but it all depends on what works. It means I could need anything from additional physical therapy to epidural shots to surgery. I've been given a referral to the Physical Medicine Dept. and they're waiting for me to call my PCP to accept the referral and schedule the appointment. It's about a 2-3 week wait at this point, but I'm willing to wait and continue with my exercises everyday.
I'm just glad it's not anything too serious...but it's still painful. This gives me even more drive to lose weight so I can recuperate faster.
Please continue to keep me in your prayers...they're working! :)
So..the good news? I don't have scoliosis. We discussed the curve in my spine and my concerns of what it might be. He said it's 99% chance of a weight-bearing curve since when I lay on my stomach and bend down my spine is perfectly straight. He says it's very treatable, but it all depends on what works. It means I could need anything from additional physical therapy to epidural shots to surgery. I've been given a referral to the Physical Medicine Dept. and they're waiting for me to call my PCP to accept the referral and schedule the appointment. It's about a 2-3 week wait at this point, but I'm willing to wait and continue with my exercises everyday.
I'm just glad it's not anything too serious...but it's still painful. This gives me even more drive to lose weight so I can recuperate faster.
Please continue to keep me in your prayers...they're working! :)
Monday, December 1, 2008
Hello, I'm...
...sick. That's right. I caught whatever's been going around. Skyler, Jason, Jake and I all have it. I'm such beginning to get it though, so there might be hope for me. Airborne and I are going to become SUCH good friends. Ugh....
Friday, November 28, 2008
Weekly video #6
Happy post-Turkey Day! I know this is a little late, but better late than never right?
Here's another rolling-on-the-floor-laughing one. It's an oldie, but a goodie and it ALWAYS makes me crack up. Enjoy!
Here's another rolling-on-the-floor-laughing one. It's an oldie, but a goodie and it ALWAYS makes me crack up. Enjoy!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I'm hooked!
Jake and I saw Twilight on Sunday in the theater. I went into it with no expectations given that I haven't read the books. I never really read the book before seeing the movie. I usually see the movie first and then read the book afterwards. I read The Other Boleyn Girl after seeing the movie. The only movie I've seen AFTER reading the book was To Kill a Mockingbird in high school.
Anyways, back to the point. Even though there are some that like the book WAY better than the movie, I LOVED the movie. I'm a visual person by nature, so I enjoy movies, art, dance, and the like. I love the story of Edward and Bella and how their journey is a sort of original one. The details about the vampires are way different than in previous novels/movies. I like how the Cullens are portrayed not as monsters, but just a little different than other people (different meaning the vampire part).
After seeing the movie, I of course wanted to read the books. I told Jake I wanted to read them now, and he said "OK"...nothing more. Yesterday I told Jake I was going to go to Barnes and Noble and buy the book to read, but I would wait 'til Christmas in case Santa had other plans. 5 minutes later Jake came up and gave me the book. Apparently he'd been hiding it for Christmas, but decided to give it to me early.
I love the book too! I was reading it 'til I fell asleep and couldn't hold the book anymore. I can't wait to go home and read it some more.
Anyways, back to the point. Even though there are some that like the book WAY better than the movie, I LOVED the movie. I'm a visual person by nature, so I enjoy movies, art, dance, and the like. I love the story of Edward and Bella and how their journey is a sort of original one. The details about the vampires are way different than in previous novels/movies. I like how the Cullens are portrayed not as monsters, but just a little different than other people (different meaning the vampire part).
After seeing the movie, I of course wanted to read the books. I told Jake I wanted to read them now, and he said "OK"...nothing more. Yesterday I told Jake I was going to go to Barnes and Noble and buy the book to read, but I would wait 'til Christmas in case Santa had other plans. 5 minutes later Jake came up and gave me the book. Apparently he'd been hiding it for Christmas, but decided to give it to me early.
I love the book too! I was reading it 'til I fell asleep and couldn't hold the book anymore. I can't wait to go home and read it some more.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Weekly Video #5
Jake and I went to see this movie yesterday...I can't wait to read the books now.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Here it goes
First off, I want to thank everyone who has read this blog and I'm sorry if my emotional roller coaster has turned you off at all.
Over the weekend, Jake and I have decided that we're going to take a break from trying to have a baby. We weighed everything on our plate that we have right now and it's not really fair to a baby to bring him/her into that kind of world.
I have a curve in my spine. We don't know what's causing it, or if it's treatable. I'm in constant pain and with a baby, that adds extra weight on the spine. I want to get a diagnosis and a method of treatment. I don't want to be a pregnant woman who can't do anything for herself because she's in pain. I also want to lose some weight. I want to get healthy before having a baby. Also, with where we live and our current bills, it wouldn't be fair to either us or the baby.
But the biggest reason is this: I miss Jake. Jake and I decided to start trying 4 months after we got married, shortly after Skyler was born. We had decided to try after a year, but I knew we would need help in the fertility department. We figured the sooner we tried, the better the chance we'd be pregnant by our year mark. Well, last Wednesday was our 18 month wedding mark, and no baby. Of course, there IS blood tests, IUIs, samples, labs, doctor's appts, stress, frustration, tears, etc. Jake and my relationship has been slipping and let's face it...other things are slipping too. I feel disconnected from him, and I hate that. We never really got to enjoy being married and I think this break will be good for us. It'll give us time to save money, pay off debt and concentrate on me feeling better.
Again, thank you to everyone for your support in our journey and we'll call this journey "to be continued..."
Over the weekend, Jake and I have decided that we're going to take a break from trying to have a baby. We weighed everything on our plate that we have right now and it's not really fair to a baby to bring him/her into that kind of world.
I have a curve in my spine. We don't know what's causing it, or if it's treatable. I'm in constant pain and with a baby, that adds extra weight on the spine. I want to get a diagnosis and a method of treatment. I don't want to be a pregnant woman who can't do anything for herself because she's in pain. I also want to lose some weight. I want to get healthy before having a baby. Also, with where we live and our current bills, it wouldn't be fair to either us or the baby.
But the biggest reason is this: I miss Jake. Jake and I decided to start trying 4 months after we got married, shortly after Skyler was born. We had decided to try after a year, but I knew we would need help in the fertility department. We figured the sooner we tried, the better the chance we'd be pregnant by our year mark. Well, last Wednesday was our 18 month wedding mark, and no baby. Of course, there IS blood tests, IUIs, samples, labs, doctor's appts, stress, frustration, tears, etc. Jake and my relationship has been slipping and let's face it...other things are slipping too. I feel disconnected from him, and I hate that. We never really got to enjoy being married and I think this break will be good for us. It'll give us time to save money, pay off debt and concentrate on me feeling better.
Again, thank you to everyone for your support in our journey and we'll call this journey "to be continued..."
Thursday, November 20, 2008
A new day
Today is a new day, and a new opportunity.
I start another round of Clomid starting today.
I start another round of Clomid starting today.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Another failure
I found out this morning that our first IUI cycle has officialy failed. I'm not pregnant.
I hate those three words...I'm not pregnant...they suck big time.
I'm sitting here writing this post and can barely see the screen because I'm tearing up so much.
There are so many emotions running through me right now...anger, frustration, hurt, disgust, sadness...
sigh...
I hate those three words...I'm not pregnant...they suck big time.
I'm sitting here writing this post and can barely see the screen because I'm tearing up so much.
There are so many emotions running through me right now...anger, frustration, hurt, disgust, sadness...
sigh...
Friday, November 14, 2008
Weekly video #4
This video is really funny. When the camera pans out, watch the lower left hand corner of the screen...
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
3 days left
3 days left and I can technically take a HPT (home pregnancy test). I don't think I will though. I'm going for my progesterone and blood pregnancy test this week.
I'm also having the biphasic shift in my basal body temp. Only 8-9 more days it needs to stay up to show that temperature-wise, I'm pregnant. There are all these signs I need to look out for now, and I'm so afraid things will go haywire and I'll have a possible pregnancy yanked away from me.
The Chinese Gender chart says with my age and October being our conception month, we're predicted to have a boy. Honestly, I'd love having a boy.
OK, must not get ahead of myself. I just need to get through to the 18th. That's D-day for me (day of missed menses). I'm getting excited. One more day that passes where my BBT stays high and I don't get Aunt Flo is one more day this is a possibility.
I'm also having the biphasic shift in my basal body temp. Only 8-9 more days it needs to stay up to show that temperature-wise, I'm pregnant. There are all these signs I need to look out for now, and I'm so afraid things will go haywire and I'll have a possible pregnancy yanked away from me.
The Chinese Gender chart says with my age and October being our conception month, we're predicted to have a boy. Honestly, I'd love having a boy.
OK, must not get ahead of myself. I just need to get through to the 18th. That's D-day for me (day of missed menses). I'm getting excited. One more day that passes where my BBT stays high and I don't get Aunt Flo is one more day this is a possibility.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Weekly video # 3
I do apologize this weekly video is so late in the day. Enjoy!
This one always makes me laugh. By the way, the "Blood-a" on the baby's face/mouth is actually baby food. You'll see it in the very beginning.
This one always makes me laugh. By the way, the "Blood-a" on the baby's face/mouth is actually baby food. You'll see it in the very beginning.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Frustrations and complications
I apologize if my last post offended some people. I don't believe I should be censored in my own blog space. I consider myself a very tolerant person and always willing to look at everyone's opinion without prejudice.
I understand there are many people I know who voted for McCain and were just as proud as I am to have voted for Obama. This doesn't make my views wrong, or theirs wrong either...they're just different. I believe Obama will do a good job as president, as I know a lot of people who read this blog believe McCain would have done a good job as well.
Again, I'm sorry if I offended anyone, but please remember this is my blog.
In other news...
According to my physical therapist, I have a lower back problem. Yay for me. He says within 2-3 months, I should see an improvement in how I feel. That's tough news when you're in constant pain now.
My MIL surprised me last night while we were discussing Thanksgiving plans. Jake and I are going to his family's dinner on Saturday. She asked me "What would you like me to say or not say regarding you and Jake trying to have a baby?" I knew that question would be coming, but I wasn't expecting it right then. I gave her my answer and Jake agreed. Hopefully there won't be any questions, but rather an announcement at the dinner, but I'm trying not to put all my eggs into one basket. :)
I understand there are many people I know who voted for McCain and were just as proud as I am to have voted for Obama. This doesn't make my views wrong, or theirs wrong either...they're just different. I believe Obama will do a good job as president, as I know a lot of people who read this blog believe McCain would have done a good job as well.
Again, I'm sorry if I offended anyone, but please remember this is my blog.
In other news...
According to my physical therapist, I have a lower back problem. Yay for me. He says within 2-3 months, I should see an improvement in how I feel. That's tough news when you're in constant pain now.
My MIL surprised me last night while we were discussing Thanksgiving plans. Jake and I are going to his family's dinner on Saturday. She asked me "What would you like me to say or not say regarding you and Jake trying to have a baby?" I knew that question would be coming, but I wasn't expecting it right then. I gave her my answer and Jake agreed. Hopefully there won't be any questions, but rather an announcement at the dinner, but I'm trying not to put all my eggs into one basket. :)
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Now that the election is over...
I will state, with immense pride, that I voted for Barack Obama.
The reason why I haven't stated this before is because when I have stated it, I've been attacked verbally by those who disagree. But let me say why I voted for him.
When I was younger, I was so upset that Bush, Sr. lost the election to Clinton that I sent him a letter with stickers to try and make him feel better. I've never been one for change. Of course, as I grew older I realized how issues we face in this country effect me as well...as a person and as a citizen. I have been registered as "Non-Partisan". I vote for whoever I feel will do the best job, be it Republican or Democrat. I understand that the position of president is not an easy one. You literally have the weight of the world on your shoulders.
However, I believe at one point, Bush sort of abandoned this country. His hell-bent paths of trying to find Saddam Hussein, al Qaida and Osama bin Laden left our country vulnerable. Gas prices skyrocketed to the highest they've ever been in history. Our economy has sunk deeper and deeper into a hole than never seemed to end. It's been a scary 8 years to me, and I believe Obama has his work cut out for him.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't have been totally devastated if McCain had won. However, I know the American people spoke, and the spoke loudly! They believe the Republican party has had the chance to change this country, and it obviously didn't work. Let's try something else, something new, something historic. This country has been plagued by racism and inequality since it's beginning and I believe we, as a people, have overlooked our differences and accepted such a change from our "norm". We have elected the first African American president in US History.
I for one am proud to be an American today. As I see the numbers of voters, I am glad and proud that I live in a country where masses and lines of people wait for hours to have their voices be heard. What other country has that?
I believe Obama has the vision, fortitude and opportunity to change this country for the better. I believe he has realistic goals for this country and realistic avenues in which to do them. I believe he has the drive to fix problems we have had in the past decade and build our country to a new glory, a country we ALL can be proud of. Of course, I know he is not without faults...and as he is human, he is bound to make mistakes. We all do. But I do believe I was right in putting my faith, and vote in Barack Obama.
McCain is a good sport and was extremely classy in his speech. I respect him, and I know it's a tough loss to bear. However, I know we shouldn't, as a country, look back on what could've been. But rather we should look to what will be.
Congratulations to Barack Obama, 44th President of the United States!
The reason why I haven't stated this before is because when I have stated it, I've been attacked verbally by those who disagree. But let me say why I voted for him.
When I was younger, I was so upset that Bush, Sr. lost the election to Clinton that I sent him a letter with stickers to try and make him feel better. I've never been one for change. Of course, as I grew older I realized how issues we face in this country effect me as well...as a person and as a citizen. I have been registered as "Non-Partisan". I vote for whoever I feel will do the best job, be it Republican or Democrat. I understand that the position of president is not an easy one. You literally have the weight of the world on your shoulders.
However, I believe at one point, Bush sort of abandoned this country. His hell-bent paths of trying to find Saddam Hussein, al Qaida and Osama bin Laden left our country vulnerable. Gas prices skyrocketed to the highest they've ever been in history. Our economy has sunk deeper and deeper into a hole than never seemed to end. It's been a scary 8 years to me, and I believe Obama has his work cut out for him.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't have been totally devastated if McCain had won. However, I know the American people spoke, and the spoke loudly! They believe the Republican party has had the chance to change this country, and it obviously didn't work. Let's try something else, something new, something historic. This country has been plagued by racism and inequality since it's beginning and I believe we, as a people, have overlooked our differences and accepted such a change from our "norm". We have elected the first African American president in US History.
I for one am proud to be an American today. As I see the numbers of voters, I am glad and proud that I live in a country where masses and lines of people wait for hours to have their voices be heard. What other country has that?
I believe Obama has the vision, fortitude and opportunity to change this country for the better. I believe he has realistic goals for this country and realistic avenues in which to do them. I believe he has the drive to fix problems we have had in the past decade and build our country to a new glory, a country we ALL can be proud of. Of course, I know he is not without faults...and as he is human, he is bound to make mistakes. We all do. But I do believe I was right in putting my faith, and vote in Barack Obama.
McCain is a good sport and was extremely classy in his speech. I respect him, and I know it's a tough loss to bear. However, I know we shouldn't, as a country, look back on what could've been. But rather we should look to what will be.
Congratulations to Barack Obama, 44th President of the United States!
Officially in the "Two Week Wait"
We had to have a second IUI yesterday. It turns out I didn't ovulate until Sunday/Monday after Friday's procedure. The second one wasn't as smooth as the first, it was a little more uncomfortable and took WAY more out of me.
But, I'm officially in the two week wait period. I go in next week for my progesterone blood test and a few days after that, I take the blood pregnancy test. I will not reveal the results right away. Sorry people, but Jake and I want to keep this a secret for a little while and enjoy the prospect of being pregnant to ourselves. We made the mistake of announcing our engagement within 30 minutes of actually becoming engaged and we want to kind of just enjoy knowing something that no one else does. Does that make sense? No worries though, we won't keep you all in the dark for long.
But, I'm officially in the two week wait period. I go in next week for my progesterone blood test and a few days after that, I take the blood pregnancy test. I will not reveal the results right away. Sorry people, but Jake and I want to keep this a secret for a little while and enjoy the prospect of being pregnant to ourselves. We made the mistake of announcing our engagement within 30 minutes of actually becoming engaged and we want to kind of just enjoy knowing something that no one else does. Does that make sense? No worries though, we won't keep you all in the dark for long.
I voted...
I woke up a half an hour earlier than I usually do to vote.
Have you used your voice this election?
:)
Have you used your voice this election?
:)
Sunday, November 2, 2008
So very tired
I've been fairly "blah" company to be around the past few days. I'm not feeling like myself.
I had an IUI on Friday, and I've been pretty lethargic since. The couch and I have become VERY good friends, and Jake was a true trooper throughout the procedure.
We had to go in about 30-45 minutes beforehand to give them Jake's "sample", so they can "wash it" and get it prepped. I was a nervous wreck let me tell you. I kept thinking about this fairly traumatic incident I had to endure when I was about 9 years old, so I wasn't too excited in a good way to do this. Finally, I was called in and Jake was hot on my heels through the hallways into our little exam room. He brought video game cheat-sheet instructions to read (how like a guy right?)and I sat on the table, waiting for the doctor. Suddenly, I had the urge to go to the bathroom...and NOW! There was no leading up to it, it just hit me. So I went out into the hall and looked for the nearest restroom. As I was scoping out the hallway, Dr. Farkas came up to me and said "Laurel?" and I looked to my right and said "Oh, hello doctor." He said "I'm coming to see you right now" and I said "I'm so sorry, but I REALLY need to go to the bathroom". So he pointed me in the right direction and within 3 minutes, I was back in my room with Jake. As soon as I closed the door, I hear the nurse outside say "Dr. Farkas, the patient is back in her room" and within 2 minutes, he was in the room and we were discussing my progress.
The procedure itself was fairly painless, but just uncomfortable. It was like having an extended pelvic exam. The doctor made me laugh in the middle of the procedure, and I felt bad because I thought to myself "DON'T LAUGH!!! You don't want to ruin anything he's doing!" Within 20 minutes, I was done and laying on the exam table as instructed. I was told EVERYTHING looked perfect, and exactly where it should be at this point in the cycle.
One thing the doctor said to me afterwards was "OK, well we'll expect to hear from you because of one of two reasons: Either you're late, or aunt flow visited and we're all hoping it's the first reason." Jake and I both said "Me too" at the same time. Jake literally held my hand through the whole thing and talked to me for the 10 minutes I was laying down.
I had mild cramping as to be expected on and off throughout the day, as well as yesterday and today. I only expereienced spotting on Friday, which was also normal. But now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I have ZERO energy, I have a headache, the cramping has turned into a pressure-like feeling that feels like it's "moving" around in my belly. I actually just woke up from a 2 hour nap, and I NEVER nap...this is too wierd.
I'm due to test November 21st as aunt flow is due November 18th. I've decided to wait the extra torturous 3 days as a grace period window if she is indecisive of showing her face or not.
Here's hoping...
I had an IUI on Friday, and I've been pretty lethargic since. The couch and I have become VERY good friends, and Jake was a true trooper throughout the procedure.
We had to go in about 30-45 minutes beforehand to give them Jake's "sample", so they can "wash it" and get it prepped. I was a nervous wreck let me tell you. I kept thinking about this fairly traumatic incident I had to endure when I was about 9 years old, so I wasn't too excited in a good way to do this. Finally, I was called in and Jake was hot on my heels through the hallways into our little exam room. He brought video game cheat-sheet instructions to read (how like a guy right?)and I sat on the table, waiting for the doctor. Suddenly, I had the urge to go to the bathroom...and NOW! There was no leading up to it, it just hit me. So I went out into the hall and looked for the nearest restroom. As I was scoping out the hallway, Dr. Farkas came up to me and said "Laurel?" and I looked to my right and said "Oh, hello doctor." He said "I'm coming to see you right now" and I said "I'm so sorry, but I REALLY need to go to the bathroom". So he pointed me in the right direction and within 3 minutes, I was back in my room with Jake. As soon as I closed the door, I hear the nurse outside say "Dr. Farkas, the patient is back in her room" and within 2 minutes, he was in the room and we were discussing my progress.
The procedure itself was fairly painless, but just uncomfortable. It was like having an extended pelvic exam. The doctor made me laugh in the middle of the procedure, and I felt bad because I thought to myself "DON'T LAUGH!!! You don't want to ruin anything he's doing!" Within 20 minutes, I was done and laying on the exam table as instructed. I was told EVERYTHING looked perfect, and exactly where it should be at this point in the cycle.
One thing the doctor said to me afterwards was "OK, well we'll expect to hear from you because of one of two reasons: Either you're late, or aunt flow visited and we're all hoping it's the first reason." Jake and I both said "Me too" at the same time. Jake literally held my hand through the whole thing and talked to me for the 10 minutes I was laying down.
I had mild cramping as to be expected on and off throughout the day, as well as yesterday and today. I only expereienced spotting on Friday, which was also normal. But now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I have ZERO energy, I have a headache, the cramping has turned into a pressure-like feeling that feels like it's "moving" around in my belly. I actually just woke up from a 2 hour nap, and I NEVER nap...this is too wierd.
I'm due to test November 21st as aunt flow is due November 18th. I've decided to wait the extra torturous 3 days as a grace period window if she is indecisive of showing her face or not.
Here's hoping...
Friday, October 31, 2008
Weekly video #2
In honor of the Halloween holiday, I'm posting a festive video. No it's not gorey, but rather appropriate...enjoy! Happy Halloween!!!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
A Skyler milestone (sort of)
This past weekend, On Sunday, Summer and I took Skyler to the pumpkin patch. Well, it was a man-made pumpkin patch as it was in the middle of a large parking lot. She seemed a little apprehensive, and didn't really know how to react to such strange object like pumpkins and bales of hay...but here are some moments we captured.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Wishin' and hopin'
Last month, I purchased a Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor to help better predict my most "opportune" days. I didn't get to use it last month as I purchased it in the middle of the cycle. This is the first real cycle I've been able to use it.
Well, there are three levels it predicts/reads. They are "Low", "High" and "Peak" fertility days. Of course, Low isn't so great and Peak is optimal. I started the 6th day of the cycle, as it requested a test stick, so I've been using it. This morning, my levels went from Low to High!!! I was moaning and groaning about not seeing a smiley face on my digital ovulation kit last month..but THIS...THIS made last cycle totally disappear from my memory. Even High reading doesn't mean I'll ovulate, but it DOES mean I have more of a chance of ovulating than I did last month.
I've been trying to keep in touch with my OB/GYN so she is up-to-date on what's going on with me. I told her my test readings, my temperature and othe rinfo she asked for...and she scheduled my IUI for Friday morning. Jake is going with me to hold my hand and I'm going to San Jose since it's Halloween and I decorate their front porch and pass out candy. So far, she said it looks all good that I might ovulate this cycle. I'm excited, and terrified.
The mentality you have when you're TRYING to become parents really effects your ability to realize when things are in motion/happening. It's tough for me to realize...after 9 years with PCOS and over a year of TTC (Trying to Conceive), that this is it. This might work. It's so overwhelming, I'm almost brought to tears with the hope, the excitement, and the fear of it all. I haven't even gotten the news that I'm pregnant and I'm already feeling like this.
I know this might sound strange, but I've always thought I would have a baby around Halloween time. It's always been my dream to tell friends and family of our pregnancy at the Holidays when everyone's together and happy. I've been doing A LOT of praying lately, and I know God doesn't always give you what you want, when you want it. Or He does give you what you want, but in a different way than you expected. I always thought I would have a baby at Halloween time, or in the Fall. Of course, I'm having an IUI at Halloween/Fall time. Maybe God is giving me my miracle in a different way than I thought. Instead of giving birth in the Fall, maybe I'll become pregnant in the Fall. Does God work like that? I know He has a sense of humor, and a reason for doing things when He chooses to do them. For some reason I've heard of women saying "I knew I was going to get pregnant at such-and-such a time". I don't know if it's wishful thinking, getting my hopes up, or the real thing...but something is telling me this is it. This is our month. Oh PLEASE GOD let this be our month.
Well, there are three levels it predicts/reads. They are "Low", "High" and "Peak" fertility days. Of course, Low isn't so great and Peak is optimal. I started the 6th day of the cycle, as it requested a test stick, so I've been using it. This morning, my levels went from Low to High!!! I was moaning and groaning about not seeing a smiley face on my digital ovulation kit last month..but THIS...THIS made last cycle totally disappear from my memory. Even High reading doesn't mean I'll ovulate, but it DOES mean I have more of a chance of ovulating than I did last month.
I've been trying to keep in touch with my OB/GYN so she is up-to-date on what's going on with me. I told her my test readings, my temperature and othe rinfo she asked for...and she scheduled my IUI for Friday morning. Jake is going with me to hold my hand and I'm going to San Jose since it's Halloween and I decorate their front porch and pass out candy. So far, she said it looks all good that I might ovulate this cycle. I'm excited, and terrified.
The mentality you have when you're TRYING to become parents really effects your ability to realize when things are in motion/happening. It's tough for me to realize...after 9 years with PCOS and over a year of TTC (Trying to Conceive), that this is it. This might work. It's so overwhelming, I'm almost brought to tears with the hope, the excitement, and the fear of it all. I haven't even gotten the news that I'm pregnant and I'm already feeling like this.
I know this might sound strange, but I've always thought I would have a baby around Halloween time. It's always been my dream to tell friends and family of our pregnancy at the Holidays when everyone's together and happy. I've been doing A LOT of praying lately, and I know God doesn't always give you what you want, when you want it. Or He does give you what you want, but in a different way than you expected. I always thought I would have a baby at Halloween time, or in the Fall. Of course, I'm having an IUI at Halloween/Fall time. Maybe God is giving me my miracle in a different way than I thought. Instead of giving birth in the Fall, maybe I'll become pregnant in the Fall. Does God work like that? I know He has a sense of humor, and a reason for doing things when He chooses to do them. For some reason I've heard of women saying "I knew I was going to get pregnant at such-and-such a time". I don't know if it's wishful thinking, getting my hopes up, or the real thing...but something is telling me this is it. This is our month. Oh PLEASE GOD let this be our month.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I'm a buffet
For the past 5 months, I have been a buffet...for mosquitos. I have had a total of 17 bites. Yeah, it bites...literally.
Benadryl and I have become very close friends. My friend Ben...Ben Adryl HAHAHAHAHAHA...
Right now I have one on my left pinkie and my finger is so swollen, I can't bend it all the way down. I feels wierd, but not bad.
It's not Halloween yet...what's with the mini vampires???
Oh well, I have another date with my buddy Ben...
Benadryl and I have become very close friends. My friend Ben...Ben Adryl HAHAHAHAHAHA...
Right now I have one on my left pinkie and my finger is so swollen, I can't bend it all the way down. I feels wierd, but not bad.
It's not Halloween yet...what's with the mini vampires???
Oh well, I have another date with my buddy Ben...
Weekly video, starting now...
While on MySpace, I was contemplating doing a weekly video...finding a funny/interesting video on YouTube and posting it. I would normally do this on Fridays, but I figured I'd start it on a Thursday. Some of the videos are old and many people have seen them. With that said, they can be considered oldies, but goodies.
Here's #1: week of 10/20/08. The Kitty Dance (in honor of Jake and Skyler)
Here's #1: week of 10/20/08. The Kitty Dance (in honor of Jake and Skyler)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Adding to the list...
Last night was horrible for me. I woke up at 11pm in excruciating pain in my right hip/knee/leg. No matter how I laid down, sat up or tried to stand, the pain wouldn't go away. Of course on top of me being really tired, I wasn't having it. I'm on the Clomid again, so the hormones were a ragin'. Pile this all together, and that makes a very frustrated, tired and fed up LoLo. Jake was so concerned, he called Kaiser to see if I needed to go into the ER. I was in so much pain I could barely talk I was crying so hard. I ranked the pain at an 8 out of 10, which I've never graded pain that high. Usually when there's pain, it's a 4, maybe a 5 at times. I decided to try and stick it out for the night and go into my PCP's office this morning. Upon examination, he said my left leg has perfect mobility (or motility, I forget which word they use). He noticed that my hip joint isn't too bad, but it's not as mobile as the other.
As I was laying on my back on the exam table, he lifted my legs straight up to see how far towards my body they would stretch. My right leg has pretty much no flexibility compared to my left. I believe my left leg went to a complete 90 degree angle, and my right went up to maybe a 40 degree angle. He checked out the Sciatica and we discussed treatment. I expressed that I'm considering acupuncture (for those that know me well and my aversion to needles...this is HUGE for me to go willingly into needle territory...even if they are tiny). He checked out where the main pain is underneath my knee on the side of my calf. The result? I am diagnosed with Bursitis in my right thigh and knee.
I've been given a prescription of Vicodin, which I'm only using pain killers at night to help me sleep. He also said to use ice packs when resting (watching TV on the couch, laying in bed before sleep, etc.) I'm also going into Physical Therapy next week. I'm also taking a "Back and Pain Maintenance" class in November at the hospital.
I'm just glad I have a diagnosis and a plan of action. He also mentioned he is very impressed with my weight loss (he's also the one monitoring my pre-diabetes). He said with more weight loss, the Sciatica may cease with the decreased pressure the weight puts on it.
I have lost a total of about 8lbs. so far. I'm shooting to lose 15 pounds total by Christmas at the latest.
As I was laying on my back on the exam table, he lifted my legs straight up to see how far towards my body they would stretch. My right leg has pretty much no flexibility compared to my left. I believe my left leg went to a complete 90 degree angle, and my right went up to maybe a 40 degree angle. He checked out the Sciatica and we discussed treatment. I expressed that I'm considering acupuncture (for those that know me well and my aversion to needles...this is HUGE for me to go willingly into needle territory...even if they are tiny). He checked out where the main pain is underneath my knee on the side of my calf. The result? I am diagnosed with Bursitis in my right thigh and knee.
I've been given a prescription of Vicodin, which I'm only using pain killers at night to help me sleep. He also said to use ice packs when resting (watching TV on the couch, laying in bed before sleep, etc.) I'm also going into Physical Therapy next week. I'm also taking a "Back and Pain Maintenance" class in November at the hospital.
I'm just glad I have a diagnosis and a plan of action. He also mentioned he is very impressed with my weight loss (he's also the one monitoring my pre-diabetes). He said with more weight loss, the Sciatica may cease with the decreased pressure the weight puts on it.
I have lost a total of about 8lbs. so far. I'm shooting to lose 15 pounds total by Christmas at the latest.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Dear Santa-
Dear Santa-
I know you won't actually BE THERE...I think my husband will have some words for you if you are ;)
I know this might be wishful thinking...but if you could even spare a Santa's sack full of Baby Dust...I'll be the happiest girl in the world, you have no idea.
Love,
Laurel
I know it's a little early for Christmas letters, and I know it's been a while since we've talked. I think I've been a pretty good girl this year. Of course, I know I'm luckier than some to have made it as far as I have. There is just one thing I want for Christmas...pleeeeeeeeeeeease????
I know you won't actually BE THERE...I think my husband will have some words for you if you are ;)
I know this might be wishful thinking...but if you could even spare a Santa's sack full of Baby Dust...I'll be the happiest girl in the world, you have no idea.
Love,
Laurel
Pumpkin Patch
Ever since I was little, going to the pumpkin patch at Halloween-time was a HUGE thing. It was a choice between Dad, Mom and I and it HAD to be a group agreement on "the chosen one". Of course, as years passed, I started taking over the carving part and we started purchasing more than one pumpkin. I believe one year, we had about 4 different ones, which I carved every single one.
I remember sitting at the kitchen table. My Dad and I would talk for about an hour on facial features and if we wanted a happy, mean, or sad face. Then I discovered Pumpkin Masters carving pattern books. We get the new one every year, and it never gets old. When I met Jake, he didn't really know how to carve a pumpkin, so I showed him and tried to make it enjoyable. I showed him the gooey parts on the inside is the coolest sight to see and how to scoop the inside. I put on Halloween movies and we would line the kitchen table with newspaper. The best part was showing the finished product to my Mom and Dad.
Going to the pumpkin patch is something Jake and I both look forward too all year. Of course, Mom has to come along too...
VICTORY!!! I found one!
Jake with our pickin's...
Me visiting the sunflower field
I remember sitting at the kitchen table. My Dad and I would talk for about an hour on facial features and if we wanted a happy, mean, or sad face. Then I discovered Pumpkin Masters carving pattern books. We get the new one every year, and it never gets old. When I met Jake, he didn't really know how to carve a pumpkin, so I showed him and tried to make it enjoyable. I showed him the gooey parts on the inside is the coolest sight to see and how to scoop the inside. I put on Halloween movies and we would line the kitchen table with newspaper. The best part was showing the finished product to my Mom and Dad.
Going to the pumpkin patch is something Jake and I both look forward too all year. Of course, Mom has to come along too...
VICTORY!!! I found one!
Jake with our pickin's...
Me visiting the sunflower field
Mom's four-wheelin' it...
Jake's pick of the pumpkin litter
Friday, October 17, 2008
Comfy??
The other day while resting from work on our recliner and playing on Jake's laptop, I had a strange feeling on my legs and when I looked...this is what I found:
Chloe fast asleep on my legs. (Please excuse the feet)
Doesn't she look so comfy?
Halloween Decor
As promised, here are pictures of what Jake and I have going for Halloween/Fall.
F-A-L-L pumpkins (You can have tea lights inside)
Artificial light-up pumpkin from Target
Yankee Candle Co. Harvest scent
Our mantle (please excuse my reflection)
F-A-L-L ceramic pumpkins from Target, garland from Michaels
Wooden candy corn & ceramic piled pumpkins given to us by my parents
The glass hurricanes are from our wedding
Close-up of Mr. Candy Corn :)
F-A-L-L pumpkins (You can have tea lights inside)
Ceramic piled pumpkins (also tea-light-able)
Then we have the entertainment center
Artificial light-up pumpkin from Target
Yankee Candle Co. Harvest scent
Drip-stained ceramic pumpkins from Long's Drugs
These ghosts were originally a gift to my mother and we've loved them for years.
They've always been my favorite Halloween decoration so my mom decided to give them to us. I love them!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
You know you live in Richmond...
You know you live in Richmond when...
When the biggest problem people complain about in your neighborhood is the Chevron plant.
When you're waiting in the drive thru and a crackhead walks up to your car and asks you to buy her a cheeseburger
When everyone who lives in a house facing a street has iron bars on their windows.
When anyone who lives in the Iron Triangle tells people like it's the coolest neighborhood ever.
When you look around and you realize you're the only white person in a 5 mile radius.
When the shiniest, newest thing in town are the rims on a ghetto car.
When you go to Taco Bell, and the drive thru has bullet-proof plexi glass windows.
When you know the policemen by first name because you see them so much (not there for you though)
Oh yeah...it's a great city. :/
When the biggest problem people complain about in your neighborhood is the Chevron plant.
When you're waiting in the drive thru and a crackhead walks up to your car and asks you to buy her a cheeseburger
When everyone who lives in a house facing a street has iron bars on their windows.
When anyone who lives in the Iron Triangle tells people like it's the coolest neighborhood ever.
When you look around and you realize you're the only white person in a 5 mile radius.
When the shiniest, newest thing in town are the rims on a ghetto car.
When you go to Taco Bell, and the drive thru has bullet-proof plexi glass windows.
When you know the policemen by first name because you see them so much (not there for you though)
Oh yeah...it's a great city. :/
Sleep is alluding me
I'm not sure I spelled "alluding" correctly.
But it's true, I'm having trouble sleeping tonight. So, I'm watching George Carlin's comedy hour. So sad he's gone...
I'm trying to be positive about this cycle...and I'm growing anxious to finish the cycle of Progesterone. I think I'm getting my hopes up again.
Hmmm...I wish I was sleepy...
Oh well...have a good night everyone! :)
But it's true, I'm having trouble sleeping tonight. So, I'm watching George Carlin's comedy hour. So sad he's gone...
I'm trying to be positive about this cycle...and I'm growing anxious to finish the cycle of Progesterone. I think I'm getting my hopes up again.
Hmmm...I wish I was sleepy...
Oh well...have a good night everyone! :)
Friday, October 10, 2008
Round #2
I've officially begun my 2nd round of medication. I'm hopeful, yet anxious to see if this dosage works.
I'm not really sure if I've shared too much information in this blog, so please let me know if I have. I'd like to keep everyone updated on how we're doing...but I'm sure there are those reading this blog not really wanting the oh-so gorey details.
I've lost a total of 7.2 pounds on Weight Watchers so far. I've been trying to become more active without irritating my Sciatica. I've found I enjoy (yes, this is documented...Laurel did actually say ENJOY) cleaning my house. I like seeing the step-by-step outcome of putting laundry away, or cleaning the bathtub, or doing the dishes. I've also gotten into decorating the house for the holidays. Last year we didn't decorate at all, so I'm trying to take it slow. I will post pictures of what Jake and I have going a little later.
I've noticed I'm more excited about this year's holiday season than I have been in recent years. I guess it's because this is a big transitional year for Jake and I. Who knows...this could be the year we become parents (crossing fingers)... I bought Yankee Candle's Harvest scented candle and burn it every evening when I get home from work. I delight in Jake being able to come home to a Fall smelling house with dinner ready. I feel like a good person and wife taking care of him. Of course, I get my share too when I have to go to class on Tuesday nights and my WW meetings on Thursday nights. We also cook together Sundays, so it's a good balance for us.
I am enjoying the cooler weather we're having today. Here, it's really breezy and colder. It's definitely wear-a-sweater weather. It's the kind of weather where you come home, have a hot cup of tea, snuggle with a good movie and warm blanket in front of a fire. I love it!!
I'm hoping to be able to go to the pumpkin patch this weekend. I think Jake and I should take a couple of pictures too.
I'm not really sure if I've shared too much information in this blog, so please let me know if I have. I'd like to keep everyone updated on how we're doing...but I'm sure there are those reading this blog not really wanting the oh-so gorey details.
I've lost a total of 7.2 pounds on Weight Watchers so far. I've been trying to become more active without irritating my Sciatica. I've found I enjoy (yes, this is documented...Laurel did actually say ENJOY) cleaning my house. I like seeing the step-by-step outcome of putting laundry away, or cleaning the bathtub, or doing the dishes. I've also gotten into decorating the house for the holidays. Last year we didn't decorate at all, so I'm trying to take it slow. I will post pictures of what Jake and I have going a little later.
I've noticed I'm more excited about this year's holiday season than I have been in recent years. I guess it's because this is a big transitional year for Jake and I. Who knows...this could be the year we become parents (crossing fingers)... I bought Yankee Candle's Harvest scented candle and burn it every evening when I get home from work. I delight in Jake being able to come home to a Fall smelling house with dinner ready. I feel like a good person and wife taking care of him. Of course, I get my share too when I have to go to class on Tuesday nights and my WW meetings on Thursday nights. We also cook together Sundays, so it's a good balance for us.
I am enjoying the cooler weather we're having today. Here, it's really breezy and colder. It's definitely wear-a-sweater weather. It's the kind of weather where you come home, have a hot cup of tea, snuggle with a good movie and warm blanket in front of a fire. I love it!!
I'm hoping to be able to go to the pumpkin patch this weekend. I think Jake and I should take a couple of pictures too.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh...
In the midst of all the emotional chaos Jake and I have been through, I hit the wall the other day. I knew I needed to do something to get my mind off of baby-making, or lack thereof. So, Jake suggested I do something I've never done before....get a massage. So I booked an appointment for this past Saturday at noon. I slept in, woke up slowly and watched part of a movie. I had breakfast, took a nice long shower, got dressed and drove to the local spa in town. I was met with a warm "neck cozy" that smelled like slightly spiced oatmeal. I was also given a cup of tea and I got to choose the flavor. I chose Chamomile and Mint since I had a soar throat last week.
I was introduced to Annie, my massage therapist (I don't think they like to be called masseuse anymore, for some reason). We sat and talked for a bit so I could finish my tea and she asked me why I had decided to do this, and I told her my reasons (or rather, list of reasons) She took me into a room that was dimly lit with candles and a small lamp. She told me what was going to happen since I was "new" to the experience and there I went...
Oh.My.GOD!!! How could I have missed this????? It was the best thing ever! I left feeling so refreshed and relaxed...I walked to Starbucks, had myself a Pumpkin Spice Latte and visited Jake at the office for a bit. I went home and laid on the couch watching the rest of my movie until Jake got home.
It was the first time in a long time where I didn't feel tense, or stressed. I admit, I would sometimes think about why I wasn't getting pregnant yet, but then I had to tell myself to relax and concentrate on nothing. "Listen to the music Laurel...Enjoy the massage Laurel...don't worry about anything right now Laurel." It was nice to forget about medications and blood tests and doctor's appointments, and frustration and crying and wondering "when?"...it was just so nice to be in the moment and forget about life. Of course, I was sore yesterday (especially in my shoulders and upper back), but I'm in love! I'm hoping to talk Jake into a couple's massage next month...I know he'll enjoy it, especially with his shoulder.
I was introduced to Annie, my massage therapist (I don't think they like to be called masseuse anymore, for some reason). We sat and talked for a bit so I could finish my tea and she asked me why I had decided to do this, and I told her my reasons (or rather, list of reasons) She took me into a room that was dimly lit with candles and a small lamp. She told me what was going to happen since I was "new" to the experience and there I went...
Oh.My.GOD!!! How could I have missed this????? It was the best thing ever! I left feeling so refreshed and relaxed...I walked to Starbucks, had myself a Pumpkin Spice Latte and visited Jake at the office for a bit. I went home and laid on the couch watching the rest of my movie until Jake got home.
It was the first time in a long time where I didn't feel tense, or stressed. I admit, I would sometimes think about why I wasn't getting pregnant yet, but then I had to tell myself to relax and concentrate on nothing. "Listen to the music Laurel...Enjoy the massage Laurel...don't worry about anything right now Laurel." It was nice to forget about medications and blood tests and doctor's appointments, and frustration and crying and wondering "when?"...it was just so nice to be in the moment and forget about life. Of course, I was sore yesterday (especially in my shoulders and upper back), but I'm in love! I'm hoping to talk Jake into a couple's massage next month...I know he'll enjoy it, especially with his shoulder.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
It's official
Clomid 50mg did not work. I had a blood test done yesterday and I got the results this morning.
I'm trying not to take this hard, but it's tough to not do so. I was so sure this would work. I know there is higher doses of Clomid that have a better run of working for women with PCOS, but it's still tough to take that a degree of the medication didn't work.
This has been a tough road for me. I've been having to come to some very hard realizations about myself in this. When I was first diagnosed, I didn't really understand the extent of what this disease would have on me. I know that PCOS is sometimes loosely diagnosed, but I actually HAVE PCOS. I have some of the classic symptoms of it.
This next cycle, Jake and I have decided to do an IUI. My prescription of Clomid will be higher than this past cycle and we purchased the CBEFM (Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor).
I've been trying not to get too upset, but I finally let it get to me on Sunday morning while at my parents' house. I needed a good cry, and I needed to let out all the frustration, anger, and sadness that I had been holding in.
I just hope this next cycle will work for us.
I'm trying not to take this hard, but it's tough to not do so. I was so sure this would work. I know there is higher doses of Clomid that have a better run of working for women with PCOS, but it's still tough to take that a degree of the medication didn't work.
This has been a tough road for me. I've been having to come to some very hard realizations about myself in this. When I was first diagnosed, I didn't really understand the extent of what this disease would have on me. I know that PCOS is sometimes loosely diagnosed, but I actually HAVE PCOS. I have some of the classic symptoms of it.
This next cycle, Jake and I have decided to do an IUI. My prescription of Clomid will be higher than this past cycle and we purchased the CBEFM (Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor).
I've been trying not to get too upset, but I finally let it get to me on Sunday morning while at my parents' house. I needed a good cry, and I needed to let out all the frustration, anger, and sadness that I had been holding in.
I just hope this next cycle will work for us.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Not getting any better
I'm having one of those days where all that seems appealing is laying in bed, under the covers and sleeping all day.
This just sucks...
This just sucks...
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
When your husband's an angel...
I've been a fan of Sex and the City since it aired in 1998. I've never missed an episode...in the four women's personalities, you can find a little bit of yourself in each of them. I was so bummed when the show ended...so you could tell how excited I was to see the movie.
Jake and I saw it on a date night. He didn't really understand the plots until I got the entire series on DVD for Christmas one year and we sat and watched the entire series from beginning to end. I've been anxiously waiting for the movie to come out on DVD. When it did yesterday, I was in my bookkeeping class and couldn't run to Best Buy to get it. Of course, I knew there were more important things than a DVD, so I figured I'd wait.
Fast forward to today...I've been having a HORRIBLE week. With taking my temperature every morning for charting and getting to be very close pals with my ovulation predictor kit...with every passing day and no plus sign...I was getting the blues. I actually broke down at the office on Monday...it was not a good day. Jake had been in class all day and I had been at the office doing..well...my job. When he came back in the afternoon, he brought me lunch. He set the bag on my desk and whispered "I got you something." I look at him and said "what" and he said "lift up the bag"...so I did. There it was...Sex and the City, the Movie!!! He bought it for me to help me feel better this week. It totally made my day. I didn't even ask for it, he just got it for me.
With all I've been going through, he's been there for me. He's never complained and has been my biggest cheerleader. He knows how hard I'm willing to fight for a baby, and I know I can count on him to be there every step of the way. He's been so supportive and selfless through this whole thing. He always makes sure I'm testing correctly and taking my temperature every morning. Every day this week that I've been testing with the ovulation kit, I've been getting a negative result. Each time, he asks me "Did you get the smiley face yet?" and when I say I didn't, he says "Oh..dammit...well...we'll get one tomorrow." He's the best.
I love him so much.
Jake and I saw it on a date night. He didn't really understand the plots until I got the entire series on DVD for Christmas one year and we sat and watched the entire series from beginning to end. I've been anxiously waiting for the movie to come out on DVD. When it did yesterday, I was in my bookkeeping class and couldn't run to Best Buy to get it. Of course, I knew there were more important things than a DVD, so I figured I'd wait.
Fast forward to today...I've been having a HORRIBLE week. With taking my temperature every morning for charting and getting to be very close pals with my ovulation predictor kit...with every passing day and no plus sign...I was getting the blues. I actually broke down at the office on Monday...it was not a good day. Jake had been in class all day and I had been at the office doing..well...my job. When he came back in the afternoon, he brought me lunch. He set the bag on my desk and whispered "I got you something." I look at him and said "what" and he said "lift up the bag"...so I did. There it was...Sex and the City, the Movie!!! He bought it for me to help me feel better this week. It totally made my day. I didn't even ask for it, he just got it for me.
With all I've been going through, he's been there for me. He's never complained and has been my biggest cheerleader. He knows how hard I'm willing to fight for a baby, and I know I can count on him to be there every step of the way. He's been so supportive and selfless through this whole thing. He always makes sure I'm testing correctly and taking my temperature every morning. Every day this week that I've been testing with the ovulation kit, I've been getting a negative result. Each time, he asks me "Did you get the smiley face yet?" and when I say I didn't, he says "Oh..dammit...well...we'll get one tomorrow." He's the best.
I love him so much.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
I can't hold it in anymore
I've been trying to be very stoic about Jake and I trying to have a baby. While I put a smile on and TRY to believe what everyone says when they tell me everything will be OK...in my heart, I'm still afraid.
Last night was the last pill of Clomid. This is it...the moment of truth. I'm anxious. I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm happy...and I'm terrified. I'm also mad at myself.
I'm anxious because I wish the days would pass by faster so I can find out when I'm ovulating and when I'm possibly pregnant. I'm excited because I have complete faith that this will work for us. I'm nervous because this is a HUGE step and we've been trying for almost a year. When this happens, it won't be the stress of trying to get pregnant...it'll be a reality and I haven't set myself up to that realization yet. I'm happy because with this medication, we have more of a shot in one month than we've had all year. I'm terrified because I guess in the back of my mind, maybe this is nature's way of telling me I shouldn't be a mother. What if natural selection has weeded me out of the gene pool? Ugh.
I'm mostly mad at myself because if I didn't have this disease, I would be more fertile than I am. I would be at a healthier weight...and I wouldn't have had to go through all these blood tests and doctor's appointments to have a baby.
I know the work that's entailed will all be worth it in the end when Jake and I are holding our child. I know this is a "for better or for worse, in sickness and in health" time in our lives together...but I feel somehow I've failed Jake. He deserves to be a Dad. He'll make a wonderful Dad. There's nothing wrong with him...all his tests are perfectly normal. I'm the one who's not normal...I'm the one with something wrong with me.
I hate to be a downer in this post...but these are the thoughts that swirl in my head every single hour of every single day. I know I have a wonderful family who supports me and is there for me...but when there's such wonderful news as my cousin being pregnant...who wants to hear me "woe is me" worries? I don't want people to feel sorry for me...that's just one more step towards helplessness. Oh, and when people say it seems everyone around you gets pregnant and not you? Oh yeah...I'm in that position right now. It sucks more than I thought it would.
OK, I'm done having my tantrum. You can go back to your regularly scheduled programming... :)
Last night was the last pill of Clomid. This is it...the moment of truth. I'm anxious. I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm happy...and I'm terrified. I'm also mad at myself.
I'm anxious because I wish the days would pass by faster so I can find out when I'm ovulating and when I'm possibly pregnant. I'm excited because I have complete faith that this will work for us. I'm nervous because this is a HUGE step and we've been trying for almost a year. When this happens, it won't be the stress of trying to get pregnant...it'll be a reality and I haven't set myself up to that realization yet. I'm happy because with this medication, we have more of a shot in one month than we've had all year. I'm terrified because I guess in the back of my mind, maybe this is nature's way of telling me I shouldn't be a mother. What if natural selection has weeded me out of the gene pool? Ugh.
I'm mostly mad at myself because if I didn't have this disease, I would be more fertile than I am. I would be at a healthier weight...and I wouldn't have had to go through all these blood tests and doctor's appointments to have a baby.
I know the work that's entailed will all be worth it in the end when Jake and I are holding our child. I know this is a "for better or for worse, in sickness and in health" time in our lives together...but I feel somehow I've failed Jake. He deserves to be a Dad. He'll make a wonderful Dad. There's nothing wrong with him...all his tests are perfectly normal. I'm the one who's not normal...I'm the one with something wrong with me.
I hate to be a downer in this post...but these are the thoughts that swirl in my head every single hour of every single day. I know I have a wonderful family who supports me and is there for me...but when there's such wonderful news as my cousin being pregnant...who wants to hear me "woe is me" worries? I don't want people to feel sorry for me...that's just one more step towards helplessness. Oh, and when people say it seems everyone around you gets pregnant and not you? Oh yeah...I'm in that position right now. It sucks more than I thought it would.
OK, I'm done having my tantrum. You can go back to your regularly scheduled programming... :)
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
A Life-Long goal is met
Ever since I was a little girl, my mom and grandma have told me that my grandfather was one of the first people to walk across the Golden Gate Bridge in SF. I never actually saw the bridge in person until I was a Sophomore in high school. I've always made a goal of walking across the bridge...just once. Just once would make me happy. It's such a beautiful bridge in such a beautiful place.
On our way home from Santa Rosa and the wedding weekend, Jake said randomly "You wanna stop at the Golden Gate Bridge?"At first I thought he was joking, then later he asked again. So I said, sure. With some maneuvering and yelling at the Garmin because JAKE got us lost at some random Naval Base, we made it to Vista Point on the Sausalito side of the bridge. We got out and started walking...and we walked...and walked...and walked. With my Sciatica, I decided to take it slow. Surprisingly, I didn't have as tough a time as I thought I would.
So we got to the SF side, and sat for a hot chocolate and to cool our heels. Then we stopped in the Golden Gate Giftshop (you know me) and Jake got me a t-shirt that says "I WALKED THE GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE"...it's pretty cool. It's a good sleep shirt. Then we walked back. Here are some pictures of our trek.
About half-way, I realized I was walking the same path as my grandfather. It was amazing to realize that I was walking across a piece of US History.
Along the way, we noticed A LOT of tourists from different countries. We heard German, Japanese, Vietnamese, French, and a guy with a thick Scottish Brogue. It was pretty cool.
View of SF from Vista Point, Sausalito
It's pretty intimidating...
Jake at the first "Gate" on the Sausalito side
Me too...
Spread out along the bridge are these yellow boxes with phones inside. The phones are for people looking to jump off the bridge and the phones are directly connected to a Crisis/Counseling Hotline.
This is what someone wrote on one. I find it kind of morbid, but a little funny.
The half-way point to SF.
About to head back from SF to our car on the other side of the bridge
From the toll gate-side park.
CONGRATS KATIE & LORI!!!
This past weekend, Jake and I went to my cousin Katie's wedding. She's been with her partner Lori for about 4 years. They finally tied the knot!!! I'm so happy for them! I've never been to a wedding at a winery before, and it was truly a memorable and lovely experience. My only regret is that I didn't buy a bottle of the Chardonnay they served at the tables. That was some good wine!
The weather was great...not too hot with a little breeze. We were shuttled from the hotels to the winery, and then shuttled to the wedding site where it was a mound (for lack of a better word) of land with beautiful Oak trees surrounding it. All around us was the vines. It was so beautiful. Both of them looking absolutely stunning in their dresses. Welcome to the family (officially) Lori!
Here are some pics:
Katie and Lori cutting their cake
The weather was great...not too hot with a little breeze. We were shuttled from the hotels to the winery, and then shuttled to the wedding site where it was a mound (for lack of a better word) of land with beautiful Oak trees surrounding it. All around us was the vines. It was so beautiful. Both of them looking absolutely stunning in their dresses. Welcome to the family (officially) Lori!
Here are some pics:
The Chuppah at the wedding site
Amidst the beautiful ceremony, I completely forgot pictures until the reception...
Katie and Lori cutting their cake
Katie and Lori's beautiful wedding cake
Yes, those are real wine grapes
Yes, those are real wine grapes
Katie's bouquet (top), Lori's bouquet (bottom)
The Horrah
Katie and Lori
Uncle Norm and Aunt Karen
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
And we're off!!
Alrighty, here it goes...
This past weekend, Jake and I went to his grandparents' cabin by Tahoe. Saturday before leaving, I stopped in by Kaiser and had my blood tests taken and a hospital-style pregnancy test. The pregnancy test was to see if I already am pregnant, because if I was then I couldn't take the Clomid. Well, the results were negative (darnit!)...but that's OK.
Monday night, I started taking the Progesterone and on CD3, I'm to start taking the Clomid for ovulation. Monday night was my goal day for taking the Progesterone and it was pretty funny watching me try to get internet access up in the mountains, according to Jake. Word of advice...there is NO internet up in the mountains! :) So I called 411 for the line to Kaiser, and I got my test results that way. Thank the Lord for 411!
Today is day 3 of 8 in taking the Prog. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this works. I know it's sort of foolish to do so, but I'm kind of getting my hopes up about this. This is what was the plan, I knew I needed Clomid at some point. I discovered this medication while watching an episode of Mystery Diagnosis with my mom. The lady featured had all the symptoms I had, but to a more extreme degree. She took the medication and went on to have 2 kids. I'm hoping that since my symptoms aren't as extreme, and I'm still ovulating (but very sporatically), that the medication will work for me as well.
I'm just keeping my fingers crossed. I'm not really thinking of this as a "race" per-se, but more of a process on learning how to walk for the first time. We need to take a couple of steps, fall down and then learn the flow and balance. Once we geting going...we're off like a herd of turtles! :)
This past weekend, Jake and I went to his grandparents' cabin by Tahoe. Saturday before leaving, I stopped in by Kaiser and had my blood tests taken and a hospital-style pregnancy test. The pregnancy test was to see if I already am pregnant, because if I was then I couldn't take the Clomid. Well, the results were negative (darnit!)...but that's OK.
Monday night, I started taking the Progesterone and on CD3, I'm to start taking the Clomid for ovulation. Monday night was my goal day for taking the Progesterone and it was pretty funny watching me try to get internet access up in the mountains, according to Jake. Word of advice...there is NO internet up in the mountains! :) So I called 411 for the line to Kaiser, and I got my test results that way. Thank the Lord for 411!
Today is day 3 of 8 in taking the Prog. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this works. I know it's sort of foolish to do so, but I'm kind of getting my hopes up about this. This is what was the plan, I knew I needed Clomid at some point. I discovered this medication while watching an episode of Mystery Diagnosis with my mom. The lady featured had all the symptoms I had, but to a more extreme degree. She took the medication and went on to have 2 kids. I'm hoping that since my symptoms aren't as extreme, and I'm still ovulating (but very sporatically), that the medication will work for me as well.
I'm just keeping my fingers crossed. I'm not really thinking of this as a "race" per-se, but more of a process on learning how to walk for the first time. We need to take a couple of steps, fall down and then learn the flow and balance. Once we geting going...we're off like a herd of turtles! :)
Friday, August 29, 2008
Myriad of Salads
I've been pushing my luck too long.
I admit, I've never had the healthiest eating habits. My weakness (surprise surprise) is a burger and fries. Of course, I also love fresh veggies, and fruit. But that sort of stuff, I have to be in the mood for it. Well, now is the time where LoLo must condition herself to not eat junk, and start eating the way she should've always been eating.
I also have a problem recognizing correct portions. My big thing is learning portion control. One reason I eat so fast and so much is because I would not eat until I was STARVING and then eat and eat and eat. Apparently, that's not the way to do it.
When I had my doctor's appointment the other day, she mentioned that I had a blood test coming up from my PCP for glucose levels suring fasting since I've been diagnosed as pre-diabetic. With that said, she also mentioned that if I were to test as full blown diabetic, I can't take the medication she prescribed...oh hell no!!! This is when the alarm goes off and someone pops up and does the V8 commercial "BONK" on my forehead.
So, I decided to do something about my conditions. It seems that losing weight will not only make for a healthier life, but also easier to get pregnant, and carry the child. Also, the PCOS and pre-diabetes will go down or away completely and also the Sciatica will go away too. So instead of being one of those pregnant women who can hardly move, I elect the alternative. I've been eating WAY more veggies, drinking a lot of water, and walking to work two days a week (hey with the Sciatica, I'm taking it slowly). Even in the few days I've been doing this, along with taking a daily vitamin, I feel great! Just the walking to work gets me out in the fresh air and I love this time when it's the end of Summer and almost transitioning into Fall. The sun is giving it's last hot days and the evenings are warm...it's the best.
I've also been checking out different salads as I've never really paid attention before. I've discovered good ones all around! During these hot days, the last thing I need is to be weighed down by "bad" food. A nice, fresh, cool salad seems to be hitting the spot. Of course I know there will be times when I'm going to have to give in a little to keep my will power going, but I don't mind that. Here are a few I'd like to try to make:
I admit, I've never had the healthiest eating habits. My weakness (surprise surprise) is a burger and fries. Of course, I also love fresh veggies, and fruit. But that sort of stuff, I have to be in the mood for it. Well, now is the time where LoLo must condition herself to not eat junk, and start eating the way she should've always been eating.
I also have a problem recognizing correct portions. My big thing is learning portion control. One reason I eat so fast and so much is because I would not eat until I was STARVING and then eat and eat and eat. Apparently, that's not the way to do it.
When I had my doctor's appointment the other day, she mentioned that I had a blood test coming up from my PCP for glucose levels suring fasting since I've been diagnosed as pre-diabetic. With that said, she also mentioned that if I were to test as full blown diabetic, I can't take the medication she prescribed...oh hell no!!! This is when the alarm goes off and someone pops up and does the V8 commercial "BONK" on my forehead.
So, I decided to do something about my conditions. It seems that losing weight will not only make for a healthier life, but also easier to get pregnant, and carry the child. Also, the PCOS and pre-diabetes will go down or away completely and also the Sciatica will go away too. So instead of being one of those pregnant women who can hardly move, I elect the alternative. I've been eating WAY more veggies, drinking a lot of water, and walking to work two days a week (hey with the Sciatica, I'm taking it slowly). Even in the few days I've been doing this, along with taking a daily vitamin, I feel great! Just the walking to work gets me out in the fresh air and I love this time when it's the end of Summer and almost transitioning into Fall. The sun is giving it's last hot days and the evenings are warm...it's the best.
I've also been checking out different salads as I've never really paid attention before. I've discovered good ones all around! During these hot days, the last thing I need is to be weighed down by "bad" food. A nice, fresh, cool salad seems to be hitting the spot. Of course I know there will be times when I'm going to have to give in a little to keep my will power going, but I don't mind that. Here are a few I'd like to try to make:
Strawberry and Almond Spinach Salad
Cranberry-Pear Tossed Salad
Can you tell I like salads with fruit....and cheese?
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
F/U: Doctor's appointment yesterday
Yesterday I was a wreck...a nervous wreck. Counting down the hours until Jake and I could leave was pure torture. I wanted to hear what the doctor had to say, I wanted to know our chances of having a child. The butterflies in my stomach were so strong, my legs were twitching and my hands were shaking. Did I mention I was nervous?
So the time came and Jake drove (thank you Honey) because all I could do was try to take deep breaths to calm myself down. I had my BBT charts in my hand as well as the lab results the hospital sent to me in case the doctor needed to see them. Jake tried to make small talk with me in the waiting room to calm me down, but I was still a little shaky. FINALLY the nurse calls my name and Jake and I follow her through what feels like a Labirynth of hallway to the doctor's actual office. Not an exam room, her actual office. I instantly felt calm and sort of happy to be there. The shaking stopped, and I introduced the doctor to Jake and we sat down.
She asked questions and I answered, and I asked her questions and she answered. She took us through the lab results and what they meant and basically told us they were what she was expecting given my history with PCOS. She asked about any previous medications I'd taken and I asked her about ones I'm taking now and would they effect the pregnancy? She included Jake a lot in our conversation and talked to the both of us, and not just to me. She looked us square in the eyes and never talked down to us. She acted like we've been her patients forever and Jake really likes her. She gave us instructions on what to do from here regarding blood tests and our new medicine and said she hopes to see us with a little one cooking soon. She also made it blatantly clear that if I ever have any questions to call her or email her at any time and she'll get back to me within 24 hours. What's funny is she put me on Clomid, which has a 5% chance of twins...oh Lord...
On the way home, I felt so relieved. My questions had been answered and we were shown a path to make this process easier on us. Suddenly, a lot of the stress and worry was gone and Jake and I just enjoyed ourselves when we got home. We watched a movie, talked...and just enjoyed each other's company. Oh, and last night I had the best sleep I've had in a while.
So the time came and Jake drove (thank you Honey) because all I could do was try to take deep breaths to calm myself down. I had my BBT charts in my hand as well as the lab results the hospital sent to me in case the doctor needed to see them. Jake tried to make small talk with me in the waiting room to calm me down, but I was still a little shaky. FINALLY the nurse calls my name and Jake and I follow her through what feels like a Labirynth of hallway to the doctor's actual office. Not an exam room, her actual office. I instantly felt calm and sort of happy to be there. The shaking stopped, and I introduced the doctor to Jake and we sat down.
She asked questions and I answered, and I asked her questions and she answered. She took us through the lab results and what they meant and basically told us they were what she was expecting given my history with PCOS. She asked about any previous medications I'd taken and I asked her about ones I'm taking now and would they effect the pregnancy? She included Jake a lot in our conversation and talked to the both of us, and not just to me. She looked us square in the eyes and never talked down to us. She acted like we've been her patients forever and Jake really likes her. She gave us instructions on what to do from here regarding blood tests and our new medicine and said she hopes to see us with a little one cooking soon. She also made it blatantly clear that if I ever have any questions to call her or email her at any time and she'll get back to me within 24 hours. What's funny is she put me on Clomid, which has a 5% chance of twins...oh Lord...
On the way home, I felt so relieved. My questions had been answered and we were shown a path to make this process easier on us. Suddenly, a lot of the stress and worry was gone and Jake and I just enjoyed ourselves when we got home. We watched a movie, talked...and just enjoyed each other's company. Oh, and last night I had the best sleep I've had in a while.
Monday, August 25, 2008
This is it...what we've been waiting for...
Tomorrow is our big day! Well, maybe not big day...but it's certainly up there in size...
Tomorrow at 3pm, Jake and I are meeting with my doctor to discuss treatment and possible medication to help me ovulate regularly to help the "process" along. I know this might sound a bit...stupid, but I'm scared.
I know being scared is normal. Who wouldn't be scared after all the tests and charting? You want a good outlook on the possibilities right? And at any moment, that cloud might be missing the silver lining. You could find out like Charlotte did on Sex and the City..she had a 15% shot at having a baby. Yeah...way to burst the bubble.
I have every confidence in my doctor. She's wonderful and so professional and knowledgeable. I have no problem being frank about my fears with her, as she is a specialist in dealing with PCOS and pregnancies. I know having PCOS doesn't mean I'm incapable of conceiving...it just makes it that much harder. I'm trying my best to see this not as an obstacle course, but as an added adventure so that when we do have our little one, we've hit the X on the treasure map.
OK...I think I'm ready...I just hope to God I don't forget any paperwork I need...
Tomorrow at 3pm, Jake and I are meeting with my doctor to discuss treatment and possible medication to help me ovulate regularly to help the "process" along. I know this might sound a bit...stupid, but I'm scared.
I know being scared is normal. Who wouldn't be scared after all the tests and charting? You want a good outlook on the possibilities right? And at any moment, that cloud might be missing the silver lining. You could find out like Charlotte did on Sex and the City..she had a 15% shot at having a baby. Yeah...way to burst the bubble.
I have every confidence in my doctor. She's wonderful and so professional and knowledgeable. I have no problem being frank about my fears with her, as she is a specialist in dealing with PCOS and pregnancies. I know having PCOS doesn't mean I'm incapable of conceiving...it just makes it that much harder. I'm trying my best to see this not as an obstacle course, but as an added adventure so that when we do have our little one, we've hit the X on the treasure map.
OK...I think I'm ready...I just hope to God I don't forget any paperwork I need...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
2 days to go...THANK GOD!!!
Life sucks sometimes...and I mean IT SUCKS...
About a month before Jake and I moved to Point Richmond, I started going to therapy again. I wasn't feeling comfortable in my own skin, I was irritable, down on myself...the works. I started going and told my therapist if she were to put me on medication, I needed some that wouldn't interfere with having children. Of course, the doctor didn't listen and I was put on Celexa for PTSD, anti-anxiety (not as bad as my siblings, but it's there), depression and I was also notified I had mild anger problems..no kidding! I know where all these diagnoses come from, and I know what caused me to have depression, PTSD, and have anger problems...but we won't go into that.
I was feeling better...I was smiling more, I was mellow. Call me mellow-yellow, because that's how good I was doing. Then I noticed something...my medication was running out. So I called Kaiser, and set up an appointment with their Psychiatry department. The closest appointment they had? 5 weeks...yeah...5 weeks...ridiculous. Anyways, my medication ran out and I felt it again. The anxiety, the mood swings, the sudden urge to cry at the MOST random times. I start crying and immediately Jake is there asking me what happened. I sit any say mid-sob "nothing...i'm seriously fine...but I'm crying"...
When I called my former doctor to discuss my medication and the affects it might have had on Jake and I trying to get pregnant, she immediately told me to stop the medicine cold-turkey. Of course, I didn't like that idea so I at least tried to slowly wean (sp?) off. Well, the day after tomorrow is my first appointment with my new doctor and I couldn't be happier. I feel psychotic. Who seriously starts blubbering in the middle of folding laundry??? who??? ME that's who!
Don't worry, no tears were shed during the making of this blog...
About a month before Jake and I moved to Point Richmond, I started going to therapy again. I wasn't feeling comfortable in my own skin, I was irritable, down on myself...the works. I started going and told my therapist if she were to put me on medication, I needed some that wouldn't interfere with having children. Of course, the doctor didn't listen and I was put on Celexa for PTSD, anti-anxiety (not as bad as my siblings, but it's there), depression and I was also notified I had mild anger problems..no kidding! I know where all these diagnoses come from, and I know what caused me to have depression, PTSD, and have anger problems...but we won't go into that.
I was feeling better...I was smiling more, I was mellow. Call me mellow-yellow, because that's how good I was doing. Then I noticed something...my medication was running out. So I called Kaiser, and set up an appointment with their Psychiatry department. The closest appointment they had? 5 weeks...yeah...5 weeks...ridiculous. Anyways, my medication ran out and I felt it again. The anxiety, the mood swings, the sudden urge to cry at the MOST random times. I start crying and immediately Jake is there asking me what happened. I sit any say mid-sob "nothing...i'm seriously fine...but I'm crying"...
When I called my former doctor to discuss my medication and the affects it might have had on Jake and I trying to get pregnant, she immediately told me to stop the medicine cold-turkey. Of course, I didn't like that idea so I at least tried to slowly wean (sp?) off. Well, the day after tomorrow is my first appointment with my new doctor and I couldn't be happier. I feel psychotic. Who seriously starts blubbering in the middle of folding laundry??? who??? ME that's who!
Don't worry, no tears were shed during the making of this blog...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Yard Sale Yelp
I remember my first experience with a garage sale. I was about 7 or 8 years old and thought myself a complete genius for thinking of a lemonade stand. I had a little TV tray table set up with my Kool-Aid type lemonade and neon green sign that I decorated for it. I think I made a total of about $10, but to a 7 year old...it might as well been $1000...
I did the same when I was about 10...my grandma was moving from Redwood City to Morgan Hill and thus had to "unload" some 50 years of "stuff". I again had my lemonade stand, this time not so successful. I did, however, managed to sell some of my old toys and stuff I had grown out of. I think that time I made about $25. I was moving up!
Well...fast forward about a dozen or more years, and here I am. I'm going through our storage unit in our house and all our closets to weed out items we don't need or use anymore (and all items are chosen by the both of us, not one picking on the other)..we've got it all: furniture, electronics, baby items (from Summer and Skyler), HUNDREDS of DVDs, housewares, gifts, etc...and boy did wierdos come out of the woodwork.
Day 1: Saturday the 16th...
Jake and I are up at 5am to go put yard sale signs around the neighborhood. We've already put a couple of ads on craigslist. We start putting things out on our front grass "patch" at about 6am...our first (and only) early bird comes at 8:40. The yard sale officially opens at 9am. We've got it all...from older men asking for p-o-r-n, to old ladies wanting 10 things for $1, to little kids rifling through the knick-knacky toy bin...but we didn't mind. I never got sad to see the items go, and I never regretted a sale...well maybe one...but it's alright. Jake's mom pays us a visit and helps herself to a 10 cent plastic collander, and our neighbor down the street is all-to-enthusiastic about my mom's eBay trinket box "order from hell"...even our housemate is buying stuff from candles and picture frames to my old light-up disco ball and tornado lamp I had as a teenager. By the end of the day, Jake and I are both severely sunburned and exhausted. We've made good headway and got rid of a lot of stuff, but we still have about 150 DVDs to sell...
Day 2: August 17th...
Considerably slower day than the previous. We don't get our first "customer" till about 10:30. We've chalked it up to people being in church and decide to wait it out. I think we got a handful of people, and every time we decide to maybe call it a day, someone drives/walks up. Jake was selling his Playstation 2 with 4 controllers and 2 memory cards for $30 total..not a bad deal. Our last group drives up and it's two ladies and about five kids. Jake and I had started packing up the books and stuff for the Salvation Army truck coming next week. Of course, everything stops as we try to make sure these kids don't take anything. One kid sees the PS2 and asks "How much for just the memory card?" Jake says "$2/piece"...obviously it wasn't good enough for the kid. Shortly after the brood leaves, weassess the damage and discover that not only had the kid taken one memory card...he had actually snatched them both from under our noses. I felt mostly at fault because I had been standing right next to him in plain view, but was trying to watch them all, that I missed one. You can really tell the characters in life.
One man came on day #1 and saw that Jake had a box of old shirts that don't fit anymore. Well you would have sworn this guy thought he had won the lottery. He was talking all sorts of nonsense like he bought an old Bayonet knife that looked like something Crocodile Dundee would carry. This guy said "WHY ARE YOU SELLING THAT? THAT'S A PIECE OF HISTORY RIGHT THERE!!!" well, he bought the knife straight off. He came back to the house at 8:30pm that night to try to buy the shirts, but luckily our housemate caught him and told him to not bother us (yes we were sleeping we were so tired by then) and to come back the next day. Well, he did and he bought more stuff. He bought Jake's old Gameboy Color because he swore he could hook it up to be a type of Caller ID screen..whatever...scary man...
All in all, we were pretty successful...was it worth it? Worth the experience, not worth the sunburn. Would we do it again? Not for another 5-10 years. Just for the sake of not feeling like I have to do this again, I think our US economic contributions will go on a long term sabatical. No unecessary shopping...ugh...
I did the same when I was about 10...my grandma was moving from Redwood City to Morgan Hill and thus had to "unload" some 50 years of "stuff". I again had my lemonade stand, this time not so successful. I did, however, managed to sell some of my old toys and stuff I had grown out of. I think that time I made about $25. I was moving up!
Well...fast forward about a dozen or more years, and here I am. I'm going through our storage unit in our house and all our closets to weed out items we don't need or use anymore (and all items are chosen by the both of us, not one picking on the other)..we've got it all: furniture, electronics, baby items (from Summer and Skyler), HUNDREDS of DVDs, housewares, gifts, etc...and boy did wierdos come out of the woodwork.
Day 1: Saturday the 16th...
Jake and I are up at 5am to go put yard sale signs around the neighborhood. We've already put a couple of ads on craigslist. We start putting things out on our front grass "patch" at about 6am...our first (and only) early bird comes at 8:40. The yard sale officially opens at 9am. We've got it all...from older men asking for p-o-r-n, to old ladies wanting 10 things for $1, to little kids rifling through the knick-knacky toy bin...but we didn't mind. I never got sad to see the items go, and I never regretted a sale...well maybe one...but it's alright. Jake's mom pays us a visit and helps herself to a 10 cent plastic collander, and our neighbor down the street is all-to-enthusiastic about my mom's eBay trinket box "order from hell"...even our housemate is buying stuff from candles and picture frames to my old light-up disco ball and tornado lamp I had as a teenager. By the end of the day, Jake and I are both severely sunburned and exhausted. We've made good headway and got rid of a lot of stuff, but we still have about 150 DVDs to sell...
Day 2: August 17th...
Considerably slower day than the previous. We don't get our first "customer" till about 10:30. We've chalked it up to people being in church and decide to wait it out. I think we got a handful of people, and every time we decide to maybe call it a day, someone drives/walks up. Jake was selling his Playstation 2 with 4 controllers and 2 memory cards for $30 total..not a bad deal. Our last group drives up and it's two ladies and about five kids. Jake and I had started packing up the books and stuff for the Salvation Army truck coming next week. Of course, everything stops as we try to make sure these kids don't take anything. One kid sees the PS2 and asks "How much for just the memory card?" Jake says "$2/piece"...obviously it wasn't good enough for the kid. Shortly after the brood leaves, weassess the damage and discover that not only had the kid taken one memory card...he had actually snatched them both from under our noses. I felt mostly at fault because I had been standing right next to him in plain view, but was trying to watch them all, that I missed one. You can really tell the characters in life.
One man came on day #1 and saw that Jake had a box of old shirts that don't fit anymore. Well you would have sworn this guy thought he had won the lottery. He was talking all sorts of nonsense like he bought an old Bayonet knife that looked like something Crocodile Dundee would carry. This guy said "WHY ARE YOU SELLING THAT? THAT'S A PIECE OF HISTORY RIGHT THERE!!!" well, he bought the knife straight off. He came back to the house at 8:30pm that night to try to buy the shirts, but luckily our housemate caught him and told him to not bother us (yes we were sleeping we were so tired by then) and to come back the next day. Well, he did and he bought more stuff. He bought Jake's old Gameboy Color because he swore he could hook it up to be a type of Caller ID screen..whatever...scary man...
All in all, we were pretty successful...was it worth it? Worth the experience, not worth the sunburn. Would we do it again? Not for another 5-10 years. Just for the sake of not feeling like I have to do this again, I think our US economic contributions will go on a long term sabatical. No unecessary shopping...ugh...
Monday, August 11, 2008
Happy Birthday to Jake!
Last Friday was Jake's 29th birthday. Of course, being the procrastinator he can be, Jake decided to wait till the day before to tell me what he wanted. So I ran around like a crazy mad woman getting him what I could. So, he got two PS3 games from me: Civilization Revolution and I reserved Madden '09 for him, and the cats got him the Iron Man game. The cats and I decided it is our personal mission to get Jake every Marvel game we can for his PS3.
Friday night was also the Summer concert series in town, so we stayed until the end and left for Jake's grandparents' cabin near Tahoe. Traffic was horrible, but that's alright. We got there safely. The cabin is really nice and we gave Grandma Shirley her belated birthday gifts and they gave Jake his. The next morning, Grandma Shirley, Aunt Edna, Jake and I went to the clubhouse where the cabin is to have a community breakfast they have from time to time. We had biscuits and gravy, which was my first time having it, and it was pretty good. When we got back to the cabin, I baked Jake Red Velvet cupcakes for his birthday and then we went into South Lake Tahoe for the day. Lynn, Grandma Shirley, Grandpa Del and Aunt Edna went for a picnic at Wrights Lake.
While Jake and I were in Tahoe and there was a Sammy Hagar concert at Harvey's. Jake and I walked around Heavenly Village and did some shopping, and I gambled a little at Harvey's. I won $55 on $5 playing Deuces Wild...it's all beginners luck. We then went to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe' and that was pretty good...loud but good. Then we went back to the cabin and had cupcakes and played Life for a while...
The next morning we slept in and left around 4pm and stopped at Wrights Lake to scope out some potential camping spots. Then we stopped in Placerville at Mel's Drive In for dinner...
So this weekend was great and the weather was amazing! It was warm, but breezy and nothing beat the smell of mountain air...
Friday night was also the Summer concert series in town, so we stayed until the end and left for Jake's grandparents' cabin near Tahoe. Traffic was horrible, but that's alright. We got there safely. The cabin is really nice and we gave Grandma Shirley her belated birthday gifts and they gave Jake his. The next morning, Grandma Shirley, Aunt Edna, Jake and I went to the clubhouse where the cabin is to have a community breakfast they have from time to time. We had biscuits and gravy, which was my first time having it, and it was pretty good. When we got back to the cabin, I baked Jake Red Velvet cupcakes for his birthday and then we went into South Lake Tahoe for the day. Lynn, Grandma Shirley, Grandpa Del and Aunt Edna went for a picnic at Wrights Lake.
While Jake and I were in Tahoe and there was a Sammy Hagar concert at Harvey's. Jake and I walked around Heavenly Village and did some shopping, and I gambled a little at Harvey's. I won $55 on $5 playing Deuces Wild...it's all beginners luck. We then went to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe' and that was pretty good...loud but good. Then we went back to the cabin and had cupcakes and played Life for a while...
The next morning we slept in and left around 4pm and stopped at Wrights Lake to scope out some potential camping spots. Then we stopped in Placerville at Mel's Drive In for dinner...
So this weekend was great and the weather was amazing! It was warm, but breezy and nothing beat the smell of mountain air...
Friday, August 1, 2008
Annie Leibovitz - Disney Photographs
Despite the Miley Cyrus upset, I LOVE Annie Leibovitz photography. I've been noticing random Disney photos of hers with celebrities as the characters. Some of the are simply breathtaking. So I checked everything out on the internet, and these are the ones I found.
Gisele Bundchen as Wendy, Tina Fey as Tinkerbell and Mikhail Barishnikov as Peter Pan
Julianne Moore as Ariel in The Little Mermaid
Roger Federer as Arthur in The Sword and the Stone
David Beckham as Prince Charming in Sleeping Beauty
Jennifer Lopez as Jasmine and Marc Anthony as Aladdin
Beyonce as Alice, Lyle Lovett as the March Hare and Oliver Platt as the Mad Hatter in Alice in Wonderland
Scarlett Johansson as Cinderella
Rachel Weisz as Snow White
Jessica Biel as Pocahontas
Gisele Bundchen as Wendy, Tina Fey as Tinkerbell and Mikhail Barishnikov as Peter Pan
Julianne Moore as Ariel in The Little Mermaid
Roger Federer as Arthur in The Sword and the Stone
David Beckham as Prince Charming in Sleeping Beauty
Jennifer Lopez as Jasmine and Marc Anthony as Aladdin
Beyonce as Alice, Lyle Lovett as the March Hare and Oliver Platt as the Mad Hatter in Alice in Wonderland
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Yay for taxes
Jake and I just got notification today from CTEC that our applications to be licensed tax preparers in the state of California have been successfully processed and accepted. We are now OFFICIALLY licensed California Tax Preparers...
It's funny where life leads you. My mom has been in the accounting field since before I was born. Seeing what she does, and my disdain for math made me swear up and down I'd never become professionally acquainted with the accounting and tax fields. But...of course, that changed. I still hate math mind you, but now I guess my mom's history got the best of me. :)
Summer and I are still waiting to hear from the state about our notary licenses...they take FOREVER!
Tomorrow is also Lynn's birthday. Summer, Jake and I all went in on this GORGEOUS bottle and glasses set that a friend of ours made. The bottle and glasses are made from green and brown glass with very pretty artistic burgundy and gold paint on it...it's tough to explain. I'm making everyone enchiladas for dinner...but...
I'm itching to try the recipe I got yesterday at the shower: Lady Godiva Chocolate Cake...just saying the words is making my blood sugar skyrocket, hehehehehehe. It's funny to me...seeing all the neat gadgets and doodads Lori and Katie got yesterday has inspired me to become more domestic. But of course that would mean having a kitchen with more than a foot of counterspace (no joke...that's how much we have)...
The Big Clean is happening, slowly but surely. I'm not sure if we'll make our Yard Sale deadline of August 16th, but I will sure as heck try. Here's keeping the fingers crossed...
It's funny where life leads you. My mom has been in the accounting field since before I was born. Seeing what she does, and my disdain for math made me swear up and down I'd never become professionally acquainted with the accounting and tax fields. But...of course, that changed. I still hate math mind you, but now I guess my mom's history got the best of me. :)
Summer and I are still waiting to hear from the state about our notary licenses...they take FOREVER!
Tomorrow is also Lynn's birthday. Summer, Jake and I all went in on this GORGEOUS bottle and glasses set that a friend of ours made. The bottle and glasses are made from green and brown glass with very pretty artistic burgundy and gold paint on it...it's tough to explain. I'm making everyone enchiladas for dinner...but...
I'm itching to try the recipe I got yesterday at the shower: Lady Godiva Chocolate Cake...just saying the words is making my blood sugar skyrocket, hehehehehehe. It's funny to me...seeing all the neat gadgets and doodads Lori and Katie got yesterday has inspired me to become more domestic. But of course that would mean having a kitchen with more than a foot of counterspace (no joke...that's how much we have)...
The Big Clean is happening, slowly but surely. I'm not sure if we'll make our Yard Sale deadline of August 16th, but I will sure as heck try. Here's keeping the fingers crossed...
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Blown away...once again
I've always been one to offer a lot of support for others, not to toot my own horn honestly. I've also never been one to ask for support from others, or try to involve others in my personal business.
Of course, trying to become a parent throws those "morals" out the window to a certain degree. I've been needing support from others who have been in my shoes, or are going through similar experiences as Jake and I. Fortunately, I've learned family and my new-found friends have given me just that.
I've always been a little distant from my cousins on my Dad's side of the family to a certain extent. I guess it's because there's a pretty decent jump in age between them and I. I've always been a little too young to relate to what they've been through. Of course, now that I'm older and more open with my experiences and what Jake and I have been through, I've been feeling closer to them. Today when I was at Katie and Lori's shower, one of my cousins talked to me for a few minutes about becoming a mother, and the troubles with pregnancy. It felt genuinely nice to be able to have someone relate with me like that. For the first time in a REALLY long time, I didn't feel alone. I've been feeling alone a lot in this race to baby. Family never ceases to amaze me in that there is always a way a person you never expected can completely (or mostly) relate to your current situation. Once again, I'm blown away by the amazing people I have the privilege (sp?) to call family. I guess we're all in the same boat now. We're all pretty much married, and soon I'll be joining the mommy club...I feel closer to them now than I have before, and I'm glad. I love my family more than I could ever say, and they're the most important people in the world to me.
Of course in joining the Nest, I've made a lot of new friends too. I've found a completely amazing group of ladies I'm proud to call friends. It's great to relate on everything from work to mommyhood to husbands, to vacations...everything. I count myself extremely lucky to have the kind of people I do surrounding me.
I have dozens of more blessings (family and friends) I can count every day...and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I Love you all!
Of course, trying to become a parent throws those "morals" out the window to a certain degree. I've been needing support from others who have been in my shoes, or are going through similar experiences as Jake and I. Fortunately, I've learned family and my new-found friends have given me just that.
I've always been a little distant from my cousins on my Dad's side of the family to a certain extent. I guess it's because there's a pretty decent jump in age between them and I. I've always been a little too young to relate to what they've been through. Of course, now that I'm older and more open with my experiences and what Jake and I have been through, I've been feeling closer to them. Today when I was at Katie and Lori's shower, one of my cousins talked to me for a few minutes about becoming a mother, and the troubles with pregnancy. It felt genuinely nice to be able to have someone relate with me like that. For the first time in a REALLY long time, I didn't feel alone. I've been feeling alone a lot in this race to baby. Family never ceases to amaze me in that there is always a way a person you never expected can completely (or mostly) relate to your current situation. Once again, I'm blown away by the amazing people I have the privilege (sp?) to call family. I guess we're all in the same boat now. We're all pretty much married, and soon I'll be joining the mommy club...I feel closer to them now than I have before, and I'm glad. I love my family more than I could ever say, and they're the most important people in the world to me.
Of course in joining the Nest, I've made a lot of new friends too. I've found a completely amazing group of ladies I'm proud to call friends. It's great to relate on everything from work to mommyhood to husbands, to vacations...everything. I count myself extremely lucky to have the kind of people I do surrounding me.
I have dozens of more blessings (family and friends) I can count every day...and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I Love you all!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Checking things off on the road to baby...
As some of you know, Jake and I are trying for our first child. When I was 15 years old, I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycycstic Ovarian Syndrome). It's a growingly-common fertility issue among women, and I'm a lucky contestant.
I've always know I want to be a mom. I feel there's no greater accomplishment than giving another person life, and showing them what that life has to offer. (I know...mushy). Jake, of course, has always known he has wanted to be a father, so our problem was just deciding when we wanted to start. Well, little Skyler was born and that kick-started Jake's brain into baby-mode. Unfortunately, as much as I would like to do the same with my body, I can't. I told him earlier in our relationship that it would be very tough (and worst-case scenario: impossible) for me to have children. So we decided to wait, and just have fun with it. We decided when we got married to seriously try after a year if it felt right. Well, nothing's changed.
So I've been charting my BBT (Basal Body Temperature), and taking pre-natal vitamins as ordered by my doctor. Yesterday I had my first batch of blood tests and got the results today...and I have no idea what any of the results mean, which I'm sure my doctor will explain them to me so I understand what's going on.
Of course, now I've figured out that my veins are difficult to find, so like an idiot, I forgot to drink a lot of water yesterday morning. The phlebotomist poked my right arm, thinking he got a vein and it turned out there was nothing coming out. So he patched me up, flipped me around (I have to lay down during blood tests or else I pass out) and tried the left arm...success!!! I came to work yesterday looking like a drug addict...not fun. So now, all that is left before medicinal treatment is three more weeks of charting, one more batch of blood tests and eating healthy...I am crossing anything and everything I can on my body that everything will go well and baby will be here soon...here's hoping. :)
I've always know I want to be a mom. I feel there's no greater accomplishment than giving another person life, and showing them what that life has to offer. (I know...mushy). Jake, of course, has always known he has wanted to be a father, so our problem was just deciding when we wanted to start. Well, little Skyler was born and that kick-started Jake's brain into baby-mode. Unfortunately, as much as I would like to do the same with my body, I can't. I told him earlier in our relationship that it would be very tough (and worst-case scenario: impossible) for me to have children. So we decided to wait, and just have fun with it. We decided when we got married to seriously try after a year if it felt right. Well, nothing's changed.
So I've been charting my BBT (Basal Body Temperature), and taking pre-natal vitamins as ordered by my doctor. Yesterday I had my first batch of blood tests and got the results today...and I have no idea what any of the results mean, which I'm sure my doctor will explain them to me so I understand what's going on.
Of course, now I've figured out that my veins are difficult to find, so like an idiot, I forgot to drink a lot of water yesterday morning. The phlebotomist poked my right arm, thinking he got a vein and it turned out there was nothing coming out. So he patched me up, flipped me around (I have to lay down during blood tests or else I pass out) and tried the left arm...success!!! I came to work yesterday looking like a drug addict...not fun. So now, all that is left before medicinal treatment is three more weeks of charting, one more batch of blood tests and eating healthy...I am crossing anything and everything I can on my body that everything will go well and baby will be here soon...here's hoping. :)
Monday, June 30, 2008
Trip to LA
Last weekend, Mom, Dad, Jake and I took a roadtrip to LA for April's wedding. It was H-O-T!!! My Dad was part of the wedding party (walked with my sister down the aisle), so he and Mom went to the rehearsal dinner. Jake and I decided to hit up a restaurant we'd seen in commercials, and have wanted to try for a while...Joe's Crab Shack...it was DELISH!! I'm also a big fan of Deadliest Catch, so I ordered King Crab to help support Captains Phil, Sig, Jonathan, Andy and Keith of the Deadlest Catch fleet...of course, we also had to order some good drinks too!
Awesome Drinks
Supportin' the Industry!
I actually cut myself on that thing!
At April and Matt's wedding
After we won free Mickey ears outside the hotel
Mom and me!!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Finally! The rest of the Texas pictures
Yay! I found the other memory stick!! Well, actually Jake found it. We didn't get any pictures of the cats because they were all hiding, and I thought I got pictures of the birds, but I guess I didn't. Well, here are the dogs, and my last adventure in Texas.
Nessa
Elphaba
Piper and Flea
Roxanne
Me with a Long Horn Cow at Big Bass Pro Shop Outdoor World
Jake and I on the plane home
Dixie
Nessa
Elphaba
Piper and Flea
Roxanne
Me with a Long Horn Cow at Big Bass Pro Shop Outdoor World
Jake and I on the plane home
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