O'ing over the weekend

This weekend, I O'ed. The OPKs came out positive, and my BBT dropped by a few tenths of a degree.

Even though I was told to not try by my OBGYN, Jake and I tried on our own since the doctors aren't there to do IUIs on weekends. We were talking yesterday and thought how ironic it would be if we had all these IUIs in the past with a negative outcome, and the one time we try without IUIs, I get pregnant. I think it would be funny. It would be like "HAHA!! I beat technology!!" Well, maybe not that much, but it would still be pretty cool.

Also, this weekend, Jake and I did major cleaning of pretty much the entire house. We (well, I did) bought two new nightstands and a kitchen cart courtesy of Ikea. We also bought a poster/picture for over our bed (we don't have a bedroom set yet, which we're working on) with wall decals. The decals were supposed to say "Goodnight my Love, goodnight my everything". Well, the letters were HUGE. So we cut off the "Goodnight"s and put "my Love" over the top of the picture, and underneath, we put "my everything". Those words are special to us, because we always call each other "my everything". I even had "YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING" engraved on the inside of Jake's wedding ring. As soon as I get a picture, I'll post it.

Weekly video 6/26/09

I'm sure everyone here has heard the tragic news of Michael Jackson's sudden death. I was following the story as it unfolded, and I was really hoping for a different outcome, but I guess God had other plans. I also understand that there is a certain stigma with his name, especially in recent years, but I'm trying to remember the better times when his music was the hottest thing around.

I grew up watching movies other kids didn't really know about. I had two favorites: Help! by the Beatles, and Moonwalker by M.J. Here is my favorite sequence from that movie.

Rest in Peace Michael Jackson.

Enjoy! (Note: this video is almost 10 minutes long.)

In today's news...

First off, let me just apologize to anyone reading this blog and finding it a perpetual downer. I'm trying to keep things as updated as possible, and this seems to be my own way to vent as of late. I'm hoping with all these extra hoops I have to jump through, seeing a positive pregnancy test will make "victory" that much sweeter. Here's the latest:

I went to see my PCP today to discuss possible diabetic medication. When I see my doctor, I'm constantly reminded of how laid back and easy going he is. It puts me at ease right away, which is exactly what I need that this point. We looked at my blood test results and compared them with previous tests. He suggested I register for the weight management class (duh) and ordered some more labs. Also, he mentioned I'm due for a tetanus shot...fun times all around for Laurel. I skipped the shot and will do it on Saturday so Jake can go with me. I'm a wimp when it comes to needles and I'm just beginning to be okay with the idea of blood tests.

He contacted the (let's see if I can spell this correctly) Endocrinology department to approve his request for my medication since they don't hand it out lightly. He also mentioned that even though I'm considered "Pre-diabetic", I WILL become a full-on Diabetic in my lifetime. Again, fun times for all around for me. I'm willing to accept that this is a possibility, but right now I need to concentrate on postponing that transition as much as possible.

I'm pretty much just adding this crapola to my list.
Overweight? Check.
Infertile? Check.
Diabetic? Check.

Life is just frikkin peachy isn't it.

Frustration at it's finest

I just got a call from my OBGYN (my new one). Last week when I had my fasting blood glucose test done, and the results came in. My levels have gone down some, but not too much; not enough to make a difference in prognosis.

He advised that I stop trying to get pregnant for the time being and concentrate on regulating my diabetes (for lack of a better word). I have an appointment with my PCP tomorrow afternoon to discuss and get a prescription for a diabetic regulatory medication. When my blood tests come back with a more normal outcome, I can begin fertility treatments again. He also mentioned that diabetes is a leading cause of birth defects and he wants me to do something about it now rather than later when it's too late. I agree with him.

In the midst of this conversation and having to deal with the fact that more time will go by while I'm not pregnant, or even trying, he said 5 words that brought tears to my eyes. "I'll take care of you". I could've jumped through the phone and given him a huge hug, it gave me that much comfort.

I'm a little sad that I'll have to stop actively trying for a bit, but I'm more frustrated than anything. I feel the past year+ has been wasted. With the proper treatment, Jake and I could've been pregnant or parents by now. I feel like I've been kicked in the shins. This is another obstacle I must overcome, but in the end seeing our baby's smiling face will make it all worth while.

I keep telling myself to just keep breathing deeply. It will all be OK...I hope.

Peach Cobbler

Saturday morning, I made my first Peach Cobbler. We have a Farmers' Market every Wednesday in town, so I decided to support local California farmers and make "baked yummies" at the same time. I've been wanting to make cobbler for a while, but didn't have the drive to do it. Peaches and the summertime go together well, so peaches made sense. Here's the recipe. Enjoy!

Peach Cobbler (recipe by Martha Stewart)

10 ripe peaches, peeled, pitted and sliced

1/4 cup cornstarch

2 tbsp. dark brown sugar

1/2 tsp. ground cinnamon

2 cups all-purpose flour, unsifted

1/4 cup plus 2 tbsp. granulated sugar

1 tbsp. baking powder

1/2 tsp. salt

6 tbsp. cold, unsalted butter, cut into small pieces

1 large egg

3/4 cup heavy cream

Vanilla ice cream, or whipped cream, for serving

Preheat over to 375 degrees. Place peaches, cornstarch, dark brown sugar, and cinnamon into large bowl. Toss until well combined. Pour mixture into an 8 1/2 x 11 1/2 baking dish.

In a large bowl, combine flour, 1/4 cup sugar, baking powder and salt. Using a fork, knives or pastry blender, cut in butter until the mixture resembles coarse meal.

Whisk together egg and cream in a liquid measuring cup. Slowly add cream/egg mixture to dry ingredients; mix with a fork until dough just comes together. Turn dough onto a lightly floured board, and roughly shape into a 12-inch log. Using a bench scraper (or spatula), cut log into 12 equal portions. Flatten to approximately 3-inch circles with your hands.

Place circles on top of peach mixture, while slightly overlapping them on one side. Sprinkle remaining 2 tbsp. sugar on top of dough. Bake until golden brown, about 45 minutes. Transfer pan to a rack and let cool slightly. Serve with vanilla ice cream or whipped cream.

Unexcused Absence

One of my nephews graduated high school yesterday and there was a party for his, another nephew's high school graduation, and my niece and another nephew's 8th grade graduations. Jake and I had every intention of attending, but Jake had to work for most of the day and since we only have one car, it was bad.

I feel really bad that we missed the party. Ugh...I'm a bad LoLo.

Weekly video 6/19/09

This video is HILARIOUS! It's a parody of Beyonce's "Single Ladies" via Saturday Night Live. To her left is Justin Timberlake, and to her right is Andy Samberg.

Enjoy!