Today is one of those off days for me.
Nothing's wrong with the epidural, everything there is fabulous. I have more mobility than I've had in a long time. I'm fully enjoying every minute of this.
Something else is up, which I can't really speak into detail about, but let's just say I looked at my blog page and thought it was too bright and cheery. What does that tell ya about my mood?
I'm just asking for prayers and thoughts that I will find some peace soon.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Weekly video 2/27/09
This is Clara, she's 91 years old. She's created a series of videos showing how she and her family survived during the Depression. To me, I find it quite approriate for these tough economic times. I mean in order to not go hungry, all you need is some hotdogs, potatoes, oil, water, tomato sauce and onions.
It's kind of like Oliver Twist meets Julia Child.
Enjoy!
It's kind of like Oliver Twist meets Julia Child.
Enjoy!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sweet Relief!!!
Wow...yeah!
I had my epidural today. It was a little drama to say the least, but it's done and I went from an 8 on the pain scale to a 3 in 5 hours. I hope it'll just get better as I get some sleep tonight. I was actually able to stand up straight for the first time in a really long time.
I'm not 100% spring-back-to-life yet, because my back still has pressure, and my muscles are sore from supporting the curve in my spine. But at least the main problem is calmed down some, and it's an amazing feeling.
I had my epidural today. It was a little drama to say the least, but it's done and I went from an 8 on the pain scale to a 3 in 5 hours. I hope it'll just get better as I get some sleep tonight. I was actually able to stand up straight for the first time in a really long time.
I'm not 100% spring-back-to-life yet, because my back still has pressure, and my muscles are sore from supporting the curve in my spine. But at least the main problem is calmed down some, and it's an amazing feeling.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I can't do this anymore...
So I was told by the Physical Medicine doc that I most likely had a herniated disc in my spine. I was fine with it, accepted it, and wanted to move forward with treatment. While I was at the doctor's, they took x-rays of my spine.
In yesterday's mail, there was a letter from my PCP with results from my spinal x-ray. It was pretty much everything I knew it would be except for the last sentence. It said "There is now evidence of spondylolisthesis". Ummm..OK...what is spondywhatever? I used my good friend WebMD, and I'm so frustrated now.
According to WebMD, Spondylolisthesis is the slipping of a VERTEBRAE in the spine. Not a disc, an actual vertebrae. Great. Basically what happens is one of the vertebrae slips over another, causing "shifting" in the spine. Most patients get the shift from front to back, but not me..no...I have it side to side. The spine isn't completely slipped to the point where my back is in two sets of vertebrae.
At this point, I lost it. This is the 4th diagnosis I've had for my back in the last year and a half. First it was Sciatica, then it was a lower back problem. Then it was a herniated disc, and now it's Spondylwhatchamacallit. I'm so done. I'm so tired of being jerked back and forth with different diagnoses and just want to feel better. I want to live my life without constant pain. I want to walk without my back looking like my body's in two halves on different sides. At this point, I don't care what they do. I'll have surgery, I'll have epidurals...I just want to be normal again.
In yesterday's mail, there was a letter from my PCP with results from my spinal x-ray. It was pretty much everything I knew it would be except for the last sentence. It said "There is now evidence of spondylolisthesis". Ummm..OK...what is spondywhatever? I used my good friend WebMD, and I'm so frustrated now.
According to WebMD, Spondylolisthesis is the slipping of a VERTEBRAE in the spine. Not a disc, an actual vertebrae. Great. Basically what happens is one of the vertebrae slips over another, causing "shifting" in the spine. Most patients get the shift from front to back, but not me..no...I have it side to side. The spine isn't completely slipped to the point where my back is in two sets of vertebrae.
At this point, I lost it. This is the 4th diagnosis I've had for my back in the last year and a half. First it was Sciatica, then it was a lower back problem. Then it was a herniated disc, and now it's Spondylwhatchamacallit. I'm so done. I'm so tired of being jerked back and forth with different diagnoses and just want to feel better. I want to live my life without constant pain. I want to walk without my back looking like my body's in two halves on different sides. At this point, I don't care what they do. I'll have surgery, I'll have epidurals...I just want to be normal again.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Weekly video 2/20/09
I'm not sure how to say that I was literally crying I was laughing so hard at this video.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Woohoo!!!
OK, so there was an obvious PEBCAK (problem exists between chair and keyboard) regarding posting pictures. I got it figured out now and all is good. So now everyone will have something pleasant to look at while reading my randomness.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Rainy days are here again
Rain...it's wet, it's cold,and it is REALLY needed here in the Bay Area. Today there's a weather emergency advisory for thunder storms and hail. As long as those little drops of life-sustaining H2O keep comin',I'm all good.
I used to be so afraid of thunder storms. I would hide in my room, or cling to my parents begging not to be left alone. It wasn't until a friend of mine made me drive into the middle of one and just sit there and watch everything. After that night, I haven't been afraid of thunder and lightning. Now, I welcome it. I welcome the flashes of electricity reaching from the clouds to the ground. I welcome the roar of thunder coming from miles away. I guess living in Texas will be that much easier for me since there's thunder and lightning there all the time.
On our last night in Texas, Mother Nature decided to grace us with her presence through a classic Texas heat lightning and thunder cycle. The air was warm and humid, even at 10 at night. Jake and I pulled up the rocking chairs his Dad and Step-Mom have on their front porch. We sat and watched the storm from about 30 miles away. It was the coolest thing to see. All the sounds was quiet except for the crickets. I'm hoping we get to see some more of that action when we go back in May.
I used to be so afraid of thunder storms. I would hide in my room, or cling to my parents begging not to be left alone. It wasn't until a friend of mine made me drive into the middle of one and just sit there and watch everything. After that night, I haven't been afraid of thunder and lightning. Now, I welcome it. I welcome the flashes of electricity reaching from the clouds to the ground. I welcome the roar of thunder coming from miles away. I guess living in Texas will be that much easier for me since there's thunder and lightning there all the time.
On our last night in Texas, Mother Nature decided to grace us with her presence through a classic Texas heat lightning and thunder cycle. The air was warm and humid, even at 10 at night. Jake and I pulled up the rocking chairs his Dad and Step-Mom have on their front porch. We sat and watched the storm from about 30 miles away. It was the coolest thing to see. All the sounds was quiet except for the crickets. I'm hoping we get to see some more of that action when we go back in May.
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