Defying Gravity

A couple of years ago, Jake and I went to see Wicked...twice! There's this one song called "Defying Gravity" that I L-O-V-E. It's one of those songs that can really be applied to any situation - professional, personal, romantic, etc. For me...it's the journey I took to becoming a mother. Each verse of the song has so much meaning.

It's like overcoming something from just shear will to not give up and overcome what cruddy hand you've been dealt at that time.

I especially like the Glee version, so here it is!

Contemplating...

I've lately been thinking of writing my story, about how I came to have this blog and why.

I sometimes think I'm nuts, other times I think if someone out there who has PCOS and is really struggling with trying to become a mother might find my little piece of the universe and read how I struggled and how we came to be where we are, that it might help.

But, that would mean exposure and letting the WHOLE story be told, of which there are some parts I am embarassed and I'm not quite sure why. But in my heart, I know that if there was a story out there when I was struggling that gave me a little bit of hope, I wouldn't have almost given up in June...a month before we got pregnant.

So what say you, my lovely people who read this blog? Yay or nay?

Happy Valentine's Day!

30 weeks!

Here's my 30 week photo:




I can't believe we have (now almost) a little over 2 months until we get to meet our daughter. I can't wait.

Last week, we took the hospital tour and pre-registered at Kaiser in Walnut Creek. It's an amazing facility and it was kind of surreal to walk through there knowing that's where she will be born.

I also have some news. I had my 3-hour glucose test last weekend, and I found out I failed. So I officially have Gestational Diabetes. I was pretty upset when I saw the results, but it is what it is. I am doing my best to get on track to make the effects of GD as minimal as possible for Scarlett.

Weekly Video 2/4/11

When I was younger, I was in dance...and I loved it. I have always wanted to be a professional dancer and perform. To this day, I'm a huge fan of dancing and dancing shows.

I was thinking of this one performance on So You Think You Can Dance. They were celebrating their 100th episode and so had contestants from previous seasons re-perform favorite routines. This one has always been one of my favorites.

It's strange yes, but to me...very entertaining. Every time I watch this routine, I think of Louisiana/New Orleans/witchdoctor/colonial times (because of the dress).

Enjoy!

Gung Hay Fat Choy!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Today marks the beginning of the year of the Rabbit, the 4th sign of the Chinease Lunar Calendar.

Baby Names

When I was younger, I must say I had really...unique...taste in baby names. When Jake and I met, I wanted to name my daughter Azuraye, and my son Carrick. These ARE real names, mind you. Usually I catch strange and unique names in the most unlikely of situations, like reading names of crew members in movies...the little people behind the scenes. Oh yeah, they have some interesting names.

When Jake and I discussed baby names, we had two names for each gender picked out. We knew there might be a time where we would possibly face twins, so we wanted to be prepared. Of course of the two names each, we had a top pick.

For boys, in order of preference, we had Gabriel Marks and Abram Daniel.

Gabriel was a name I've always liked, as Jake did as well. Marks is my father's middle name.

Abram was the original Hebrew pronunciation of Abraham from the Bible. Daniel is Jake's middle name as it is also his grandfather's first name.

For girls, we had Scarlett Leigh and Avery Mariah.

Avery was just a name Jake and I liked. Mariah is my great-grandmother's middle name.

Now for the name we chose...Scarlett Leigh.

When people hear the name Scarlett, they automatically say "like Scarlett O'Hara?" Well...yes, actually. Let me explain.

When I was little, I grew up on classic black and white movies: Rebecca, Jane Eyre (with Olivia DeHallivand and Orson Wells), Gaslight, old Shirley Temple movies, and (though not black and white) Gone With the Wind. When I was young, I loved the big beautiful dresses and the grandeur of the cinematography. I was always a fan.

When I got older, I always loved Gone With the Wind. When the movie came out in an anniversary edition, I had to have it. I watched it over and over, and fell in love with it all over again. Most people would say that Scarlett O'Hara is a selfish, mean-spirited, bitter girl who turns into a hateful person as she grows. I disagree. Scarlett is fiery (she IS Irish afterall), she's determined, ambitious, smart, and never gives up. She rebuilds her family's almost torn down plantation (due to the Civil War) to it's (almost) former glory when everyone else is accusing her of horrible things like cheating on her husband. She beats the odds and becomes a powerful person. Sure she starts out as naive and yes, even a bit selfish, but when everyone else is calling her "hateful" (like her own sister), she presses on and refuses to let down. I love it.

I find Scarlett O'Hara to be one of the brightest and most wonderful females written for the English language. She's a strong woman. That is something I would love my daughter to aspire to be. Smart, determined, unwavering in what she wants.

Leigh is her middle name, after my cousin, Megan. Megan is not much different than Scarlett herself. Megan refused to give up after some really tough trials in life. She's smart, determined and an admirable person. She does whatever she can for her family no matter who says what. She's one of my best friends. She and I have (of course) had our differences in the past, but one thing has always remained the same...we love each other. Sure we're family, but I consider myself lucky to have family such as her. No matter her opinion of people's actions (and Lord knows I have been on the receiving end in my day), she appreciates the person and not the action. Believe me, I speak from experience.

So that's how we came to choose our daughter's name. Scarlett Leigh...and I can't wait to see our wonderful little girl grow up before our eyes and become a beautiful woman.